06-25-2018, 03:39 PM
Moving up to 5 loops tonight. I'll see what happens from here on out.
Yesterday was my night off. I kind of messed up and didn't get a lot of sleep. Today was hell for me. Both being tired and the sub feeling like it hit me a lot harder. I've noticed when I have a day off it's like my mind switches to full execution mode or at least it tries. A lot more resistance, a lot more anxiety, and this awful gut feeling of fear I get like I'm on the verge of dying. My main goal is just calming myself when this happens because it's really easy to get caught in a fear loop. But overall I'm working through it a lot better, it's just really eye opening to see how much irrational fear I have.
Right now I'm about to head to bed earlier than usual. I was going to push myself to work on my music more, but I've realized lately I haven't been taking care of myself well enough. I shouldn't be lazy with my music, but I have to remember my mental health comes first. And if I have a few days I don't get to it, that's ok. I really need to work on that as well. Whenever I miss a day to make music I start worrying that I'm running out of time and then the panic sets in that pushes me to obsess over the music too much and burn myself out.
Yesterday was my night off. I kind of messed up and didn't get a lot of sleep. Today was hell for me. Both being tired and the sub feeling like it hit me a lot harder. I've noticed when I have a day off it's like my mind switches to full execution mode or at least it tries. A lot more resistance, a lot more anxiety, and this awful gut feeling of fear I get like I'm on the verge of dying. My main goal is just calming myself when this happens because it's really easy to get caught in a fear loop. But overall I'm working through it a lot better, it's just really eye opening to see how much irrational fear I have.
Right now I'm about to head to bed earlier than usual. I was going to push myself to work on my music more, but I've realized lately I haven't been taking care of myself well enough. I shouldn't be lazy with my music, but I have to remember my mental health comes first. And if I have a few days I don't get to it, that's ok. I really need to work on that as well. Whenever I miss a day to make music I start worrying that I'm running out of time and then the panic sets in that pushes me to obsess over the music too much and burn myself out.
INFP
