Day 1 DMSI 3.2 A
Lots of subtle looks. Mindset and presence of "yes admire" kids staring like Im a celeb.
Some deep h/c has hit something. Tears are been shed over music and the slightest things. Been a while and it feels good to just shed tears. Non judgmental over it. This also ties in my realisation that im still am very "mental" orientated, explanatory. Its time to live. Like all boxes shattered ans click into my (sexual ) core almost akin to just merge and blend. Like, becoming life itself. Reckless abandonment. Its so freaking good. This might be it. Total feeling of emotion and transcending. Its a subtility in communication orientation. I just want to live instead of explaining and being a "pro" and so philosophical. Almost like an ecstatic omnipresence.
Still more tears beneath the surface.
Ran 8 loops last night. I lost my sentences after only a few words. My vocality felt really "loose" and unhinged this morning including zoning and blanking out. Women seems very forgivable generally. Like, my aura diffuses it.
Shittests dont get to me. Non reactive.
Another is, which ties into my wide interest field, is choosing my core first. Like, my inner core is first and foremost and itll shed clarity. To much bouncing around. Fuck it if it aint that status, decided by others. Herein lies huge potential.
Its akin to the what society/people deem valuable and high status. Fact is, Im choosing for me. Myself first. Thats why im shattering those matrixes. Embracing myself instead of all those cover up layers and expectations.
Thats why festivals are so good.
Lots of subtle looks. Mindset and presence of "yes admire" kids staring like Im a celeb.
Some deep h/c has hit something. Tears are been shed over music and the slightest things. Been a while and it feels good to just shed tears. Non judgmental over it. This also ties in my realisation that im still am very "mental" orientated, explanatory. Its time to live. Like all boxes shattered ans click into my (sexual ) core almost akin to just merge and blend. Like, becoming life itself. Reckless abandonment. Its so freaking good. This might be it. Total feeling of emotion and transcending. Its a subtility in communication orientation. I just want to live instead of explaining and being a "pro" and so philosophical. Almost like an ecstatic omnipresence.
Still more tears beneath the surface.
Ran 8 loops last night. I lost my sentences after only a few words. My vocality felt really "loose" and unhinged this morning including zoning and blanking out. Women seems very forgivable generally. Like, my aura diffuses it.
Shittests dont get to me. Non reactive.
Another is, which ties into my wide interest field, is choosing my core first. Like, my inner core is first and foremost and itll shed clarity. To much bouncing around. Fuck it if it aint that status, decided by others. Herein lies huge potential.
Its akin to the what society/people deem valuable and high status. Fact is, Im choosing for me. Myself first. Thats why im shattering those matrixes. Embracing myself instead of all those cover up layers and expectations.
Thats why festivals are so good.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
