06-22-2018, 05:16 AM
So.. 2 days of 7 loops of A and I feel like I have had enough lol. I went out to get some food at the super market and I actually noticed less IOI than before which made me feel like all this is silly looking to see if DMSI is doing anything, felt like looking for validation and I do not want to be that guy.
I feel moments of dizziness during the day from doing 2 nights of 7 loops.
After the first night of 7 loops, I felt quite a lot of guilt during the day with certain memories of how I acted with my ex girlfriend and when I went to bed that night I felt it even more and I felt like a bad person and felt like I wanted to make things right...but I realised I can't.
Today I felt like I am not "muscular enough" and it made me think why do I have to be more muscular to feel good about my self! Why!?? If women only find me more attractive because I am more muscular... then I don't even want to be apart of that fucked of game...which society has programmed into me and others. I hate it.
Today after getting my food, I felt like giving up, I just want to get completely off the topic of women and focus on myself. I want to just focus on what I want out of life that is not related to women. I felt relief in that.
Right now I feel dizzy. I am thinking about just letting it bloom and move on.
I feel silly for even thinking this will even make a difference, as if women will magically seduce me. I believe the reason 3.1 was good was because it had "Meet them half way", I felt that it made a lot of difference. Waiting to be seduced 100% seems kinda needy and very passive, I know others will disagree as it is not what DMSI is about, but I feel DMSI is programming that mindset into me and it don't feel productive on the seduction side.
For example... these attractive women I got IOI from, imagine if the programming was 100% for us to take action, and seduce them! I am sure we would have more results by now, because we can then take 100% responsibility. When the ball is in there court we can't take 100% responsibility because we can't control other people, we just have to wait.
I know this is not what DMSI is about, I just don't like the ball being in the other persons court, it feels too passive for me for some reason, I don't like it.
Resistance rant over.
I feel moments of dizziness during the day from doing 2 nights of 7 loops.
After the first night of 7 loops, I felt quite a lot of guilt during the day with certain memories of how I acted with my ex girlfriend and when I went to bed that night I felt it even more and I felt like a bad person and felt like I wanted to make things right...but I realised I can't.
Today I felt like I am not "muscular enough" and it made me think why do I have to be more muscular to feel good about my self! Why!?? If women only find me more attractive because I am more muscular... then I don't even want to be apart of that fucked of game...which society has programmed into me and others. I hate it.
Today after getting my food, I felt like giving up, I just want to get completely off the topic of women and focus on myself. I want to just focus on what I want out of life that is not related to women. I felt relief in that.
Right now I feel dizzy. I am thinking about just letting it bloom and move on.
I feel silly for even thinking this will even make a difference, as if women will magically seduce me. I believe the reason 3.1 was good was because it had "Meet them half way", I felt that it made a lot of difference. Waiting to be seduced 100% seems kinda needy and very passive, I know others will disagree as it is not what DMSI is about, but I feel DMSI is programming that mindset into me and it don't feel productive on the seduction side.
For example... these attractive women I got IOI from, imagine if the programming was 100% for us to take action, and seduce them! I am sure we would have more results by now, because we can then take 100% responsibility. When the ball is in there court we can't take 100% responsibility because we can't control other people, we just have to wait.
I know this is not what DMSI is about, I just don't like the ball being in the other persons court, it feels too passive for me for some reason, I don't like it.
Resistance rant over.
