06-21-2018, 11:42 AM
I wanna get to a place where peoples emotions don't affect me. Like I was before. Like they could be angry but I could just distance myself from it by just directing my intention towards distancing myself from it. Get it? I don't need to be an alpha in the room, roaming free in the lands of seduction, I just want to be..me. Free to be me. Free from other peoples toxic influences and emotions. Free to live, laugh, cry, free to express what I feel and what I think.
Something bugs me, really bad. My dad and I used to have a really good connection before, but now it's like he doesn't want to connect wtih me, like there is something in between us. Like he really doesn't take in what I say, but put something up like a protection. I don't know why. Am I toxic? Is he doing this trying to please my mother in some weird fucked-up way? I don't know. I tear me apart, as our relationship mean very much to me, and I miss having it.
Something bugs me, really bad. My dad and I used to have a really good connection before, but now it's like he doesn't want to connect wtih me, like there is something in between us. Like he really doesn't take in what I say, but put something up like a protection. I don't know why. Am I toxic? Is he doing this trying to please my mother in some weird fucked-up way? I don't know. I tear me apart, as our relationship mean very much to me, and I miss having it.
