The grip my mother have had/has over my emotional state is slowly slipping out of her hands. And I can feel how she is upset about it, which even more clearly show her lack of empathy and need to control other people, which probably stem from her lack of self-control and realization. It feels good to know that things are changing, and I can somewhat feel something changing inside of me as well.
During a run earlier today I had a moment where I sat in a garden and just breathed, and it felt like freedom. When I later started running again words came up in me like "let go of the guilt" and "forgive yourself".
I know I have been carrying a lot of guilt and shame about being unfaithful to my previous 2 girlfriends and hurting them, I have really been tourmenting myself for this, and in some way developed a thinking that "I am a bad person". Feels good that I'm starting to be able to work past this guilt and start forgiving myself.
During a run earlier today I had a moment where I sat in a garden and just breathed, and it felt like freedom. When I later started running again words came up in me like "let go of the guilt" and "forgive yourself".
I know I have been carrying a lot of guilt and shame about being unfaithful to my previous 2 girlfriends and hurting them, I have really been tourmenting myself for this, and in some way developed a thinking that "I am a bad person". Feels good that I'm starting to be able to work past this guilt and start forgiving myself.
