Had an AWESOME day today with my best girl-friend, going out with my boat and just chilling at sea. Really, without doubt, the best day in at least 3 years.
Things are starting to clear. I am realizing stuff about my parents and seeing things from a more sober perspective. My moms emotionall maturity, is about a 10 or 15 year old persons. For real. I am not kidding. She is like a child, and that is why she reacts as she does when she doesn't get things she want, she gets, angry, hurt, etc. I thought it was like this before, but I am seriously not overstating it. If you let that kind of person be in control of your emotional state you are in for a bad time.
She can't accept that other people can take care of themselves, but need to be invovled in EVERYTHING, as soon as there is something to be invovled she need to be there, and that is just draining for me for some kind of reason. Like I can't keep myself to myself, but get dragged into it. I realize how much guilt have controlled me in tha past, affecting me in a way that I need to take care of other peoples needs all the time, but foremust my mom. F u c k her needs. It's not my problem (I keep repeating this but please give me a little break, I need to do it).
Things are starting to clear. I am realizing stuff about my parents and seeing things from a more sober perspective. My moms emotionall maturity, is about a 10 or 15 year old persons. For real. I am not kidding. She is like a child, and that is why she reacts as she does when she doesn't get things she want, she gets, angry, hurt, etc. I thought it was like this before, but I am seriously not overstating it. If you let that kind of person be in control of your emotional state you are in for a bad time.
She can't accept that other people can take care of themselves, but need to be invovled in EVERYTHING, as soon as there is something to be invovled she need to be there, and that is just draining for me for some kind of reason. Like I can't keep myself to myself, but get dragged into it. I realize how much guilt have controlled me in tha past, affecting me in a way that I need to take care of other peoples needs all the time, but foremust my mom. F u c k her needs. It's not my problem (I keep repeating this but please give me a little break, I need to do it).
