06-15-2018, 02:33 AM
Basically I can sum up what I'm feeling right now as recovering from amnesia. It no longer feels like I'm changing and instead returning to my original non corrupted self. Before all the expectations and other crap placed on me. I don't exist in this world to be a punching bag for others or live a life being a slave to a system. It all feels more like remembering rather than pushing for some grand change.
Removing that need for validation from others, it's what frees me the most. No longer giving in to the stress of not being good at something or not working hard enough or any manner of motivations fueled by my fear of what others may think. I've realized life has been so stressful for me because I felt like I had to prove something all the time. But I'm done playing that game. That automatic script that runs in my head no longer has to be responded to.
Removing that need for validation from others, it's what frees me the most. No longer giving in to the stress of not being good at something or not working hard enough or any manner of motivations fueled by my fear of what others may think. I've realized life has been so stressful for me because I felt like I had to prove something all the time. But I'm done playing that game. That automatic script that runs in my head no longer has to be responded to.
INFP
