06-14-2018, 07:01 AM
Day 5
I feel...different. even tho fantasizing is a closed escape, Im now feeling sexy and calm. Blissfull and NGAF. about the fantasizing thing. I stopped it consciously and now im flooded with a woman. A teacher who rubs her foot over my crotch and im feeling it physically. My crotch is tingling and im sinking in relaxation.
Women, in my presence, are acting feminine as a reaction my presence. Saw it with G at the gym. Indonasian girl. Calling me sir in a playfull way.
Another thing is, my undertone in talking is carried with a sexual sense. It is there and lots of sexy subcommunication /subtext. My communication and speaking is getting noticaly sexier. Like sexual emotional charged speaking to the female mind.
Another is, abundance of internal richess and potential. It fuelling and towering. Like an internal scourching the limited beliefs. Embrace it.
Also, im more and more starting to feel like a teacher.
Last night, after I set my buzzer, I slept through it. Found it this morning shutted off. Guess in my sleep I did shut it off. Is the second time and find it didnt wake me for my loops. Woke up, played a loop.
After that, my car had to go to the garage for the check up. Several girls beaming smiles, opening me. Not wholly celebrity but there was a seductive quality to it. I was enjoying myself and chatting them a bit up.
Also, my social handling was unfazed. Got myself a replacement car and felt unfazed. Like, alright, rental car, oh well" more of an smooth transition. I noticed while driving this, lotsa people looked at me while driving. Makes me wonder the status a car has in peoples eyes.
Also, when called for the reparation cost, there was a huge grin on my face hearing the amounts coming through in terms of money. I was like "bring it on" and was simply enjoying the conversation.
Whatever cleared last night/this morning I dig it.
Speaking with people, listening but not really paying physical attention, rather tuning in through hearing seems to 10fold perceived value and lowers the value of the one speaking. It stood out to me.
I feel...different. even tho fantasizing is a closed escape, Im now feeling sexy and calm. Blissfull and NGAF. about the fantasizing thing. I stopped it consciously and now im flooded with a woman. A teacher who rubs her foot over my crotch and im feeling it physically. My crotch is tingling and im sinking in relaxation.
Women, in my presence, are acting feminine as a reaction my presence. Saw it with G at the gym. Indonasian girl. Calling me sir in a playfull way.
Another thing is, my undertone in talking is carried with a sexual sense. It is there and lots of sexy subcommunication /subtext. My communication and speaking is getting noticaly sexier. Like sexual emotional charged speaking to the female mind.
Another is, abundance of internal richess and potential. It fuelling and towering. Like an internal scourching the limited beliefs. Embrace it.
Also, im more and more starting to feel like a teacher.
Last night, after I set my buzzer, I slept through it. Found it this morning shutted off. Guess in my sleep I did shut it off. Is the second time and find it didnt wake me for my loops. Woke up, played a loop.
After that, my car had to go to the garage for the check up. Several girls beaming smiles, opening me. Not wholly celebrity but there was a seductive quality to it. I was enjoying myself and chatting them a bit up.
Also, my social handling was unfazed. Got myself a replacement car and felt unfazed. Like, alright, rental car, oh well" more of an smooth transition. I noticed while driving this, lotsa people looked at me while driving. Makes me wonder the status a car has in peoples eyes.
Also, when called for the reparation cost, there was a huge grin on my face hearing the amounts coming through in terms of money. I was like "bring it on" and was simply enjoying the conversation.
Whatever cleared last night/this morning I dig it.
Speaking with people, listening but not really paying physical attention, rather tuning in through hearing seems to 10fold perceived value and lowers the value of the one speaking. It stood out to me.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
