06-12-2018, 07:42 AM
Day 3 version B 4 loops.
on day 1, I executed directly. it was clear, like an giving way to DMSI directly, like "okay, have it your way"without me doing anything. execution.
now on day 3, im getting to the root. had my parents over as it is my birthday tomorrow. Im feeling very charismatic in my writing, its clear to me, like writing an novel and being almost enigmatic with it.
past girl, S, has added me on snapchat. I know her bf. I dont care. this round, DMSI is turning me into an in the flesh Hank Moody. the playfullness is there, aswell as the attitude, the laid backness, the welcoming of women,. on the first day the sense of women kept expanding. atleast 12 girls giving IOIs, almost like a classroom. Im more and more focussed on women, yet simultaneously IDC. Its like withnessing art, being seductive in vibe, in speech and having an IDGAf attitude, and at the same time not focussed on women at all, just being my playfull self, and things ahppen. on day 1, I had the genuine sense of curiosity of what was next without me putting in any expectations, just curiosity and going from there.
at certain places, anxiety keeps popping up, and Im harsh on myself because of this, this unroots lots of stuff, core isues probably. im also having urges to run AM6, which is not gonna happen, but the urge to do so, the taunting, is strong. the escapism is real.
In an sense, im already shifted into paradise. all kind of things are faced, experiences with women, atittude and what not, and when I decide to just not gice a fuck, momentum builds up. maybe, becuase I am an gemini by sign, im more in my head, idk.
My life is unfolding like a novel,cant escape the pussy, little vixens. Im not blind to the testing there is, but im having shittests being bounced of me more and more. yesterday evening I came to an conclusion around guilt and that it still plays an massive role, probably stemming from my past, and thus not giving an fuck has guilt popping up, like an subtle blend in when doing something. could be an stemming from my dad that is repeating and replaying. an old trauma coming up, although on AM6 this old wound was being dealth with, altleast, on an more surface level.
Whatever. its thugwar inside, in an way im hellbent executing, otherwise im more subtle executing. the mentioning of seeing and reading women aura is also something mindblowing to me, this morning when running my loops and reading about it, it ws a lightbulb moment. like an "yes, it totally makes sense", followed by an huge sexual surge filling my body, setting me on sexual fire. about the war inside, im between executing and resisting still. its causing all kinds of expereinces to happen. like, freeze responses an its pissing me off more and more. It even feels like its tearing me apart. internally being ripped and teared to shreds.
Im totally feel like Im being chased by women now. time to get more comfortable with it, intrigued even, admiration. loving women without me being needy at all. its like being an total shitlor along with an grin on my face.
When I lock with women, they feel it, they lock back eyes, and I want to be more confident in it. it feels out of character to me, to have this anxiety coming up, on AM6 it was an don't care attitude, perhaps, because things are being dealt with and sex plays its role, im facing some hard roots and issues.
Tbh, I feel in between 2 realities now, one where I am chased down by women constantly, on an continuous basis, on the other hand, im still having "hunter"traits going on. Like, "hunter"programming kicking in randomly. just get okay with it, being the chased.
So much more is currently happening, like the fluttering in my bodym, the energy waves going on, feeling and reading women energies and just goign full autopilot for example. the magnitude of DMSi is blowing me away.
Im so so close now, its absurd, all thats going on is sex now in my whole being, in my mind, my legs being numb and electrified with sexual energy, my dick tingling like mad. women lustingly lookign at me, and all is falling into place.
Oh well, im starting to get more nochalant, and this also causes more and more room fo women seducing me. DMSI is the real fucking deal,
on day 1, I executed directly. it was clear, like an giving way to DMSI directly, like "okay, have it your way"without me doing anything. execution.
now on day 3, im getting to the root. had my parents over as it is my birthday tomorrow. Im feeling very charismatic in my writing, its clear to me, like writing an novel and being almost enigmatic with it.
past girl, S, has added me on snapchat. I know her bf. I dont care. this round, DMSI is turning me into an in the flesh Hank Moody. the playfullness is there, aswell as the attitude, the laid backness, the welcoming of women,. on the first day the sense of women kept expanding. atleast 12 girls giving IOIs, almost like a classroom. Im more and more focussed on women, yet simultaneously IDC. Its like withnessing art, being seductive in vibe, in speech and having an IDGAf attitude, and at the same time not focussed on women at all, just being my playfull self, and things ahppen. on day 1, I had the genuine sense of curiosity of what was next without me putting in any expectations, just curiosity and going from there.
at certain places, anxiety keeps popping up, and Im harsh on myself because of this, this unroots lots of stuff, core isues probably. im also having urges to run AM6, which is not gonna happen, but the urge to do so, the taunting, is strong. the escapism is real.
In an sense, im already shifted into paradise. all kind of things are faced, experiences with women, atittude and what not, and when I decide to just not gice a fuck, momentum builds up. maybe, becuase I am an gemini by sign, im more in my head, idk.
My life is unfolding like a novel,cant escape the pussy, little vixens. Im not blind to the testing there is, but im having shittests being bounced of me more and more. yesterday evening I came to an conclusion around guilt and that it still plays an massive role, probably stemming from my past, and thus not giving an fuck has guilt popping up, like an subtle blend in when doing something. could be an stemming from my dad that is repeating and replaying. an old trauma coming up, although on AM6 this old wound was being dealth with, altleast, on an more surface level.
Whatever. its thugwar inside, in an way im hellbent executing, otherwise im more subtle executing. the mentioning of seeing and reading women aura is also something mindblowing to me, this morning when running my loops and reading about it, it ws a lightbulb moment. like an "yes, it totally makes sense", followed by an huge sexual surge filling my body, setting me on sexual fire. about the war inside, im between executing and resisting still. its causing all kinds of expereinces to happen. like, freeze responses an its pissing me off more and more. It even feels like its tearing me apart. internally being ripped and teared to shreds.
Im totally feel like Im being chased by women now. time to get more comfortable with it, intrigued even, admiration. loving women without me being needy at all. its like being an total shitlor along with an grin on my face.
When I lock with women, they feel it, they lock back eyes, and I want to be more confident in it. it feels out of character to me, to have this anxiety coming up, on AM6 it was an don't care attitude, perhaps, because things are being dealt with and sex plays its role, im facing some hard roots and issues.
Tbh, I feel in between 2 realities now, one where I am chased down by women constantly, on an continuous basis, on the other hand, im still having "hunter"traits going on. Like, "hunter"programming kicking in randomly. just get okay with it, being the chased.
So much more is currently happening, like the fluttering in my bodym, the energy waves going on, feeling and reading women energies and just goign full autopilot for example. the magnitude of DMSi is blowing me away.
Im so so close now, its absurd, all thats going on is sex now in my whole being, in my mind, my legs being numb and electrified with sexual energy, my dick tingling like mad. women lustingly lookign at me, and all is falling into place.
Oh well, im starting to get more nochalant, and this also causes more and more room fo women seducing me. DMSI is the real fucking deal,
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
