First of all, lets state the facts:
Your sister let you live in her house for free.
Your sister is buying you stuff.
There is no objective problem in that, you are in a rather good position.
But there could be stuff going on on a deeper level, sure. She could be buying you stuff to reinforce her position as more successfull (I guess there can be some competition-dynamics) going on between siblings. Some people need to make others feel unable to make themselves feel able, but I am not really sure that is the thing here, it's more that she feel good about herself buying stuff to you, and you, already insecure, see those as hurtful to your already "damaged" ego.
My recommendation, is to get yourself to a place where you first don't take such things as a "punch to the gut" but instead learn to appreciate your current situation and maybe also your sister for supporting you. The reason behind her actions is of secondary importance. And in the process of doing so, also take care of your own situation, get a job, your own income, etc.
I would recommend E2. It have helped me tremendously with my situation at home (I have a mom that show some of the tendencies that you describe in your sister). It doesn't affect me anymore, at least not as much as before. Now I decide how I feel about things.
Your sister let you live in her house for free.
Your sister is buying you stuff.
There is no objective problem in that, you are in a rather good position.
But there could be stuff going on on a deeper level, sure. She could be buying you stuff to reinforce her position as more successfull (I guess there can be some competition-dynamics) going on between siblings. Some people need to make others feel unable to make themselves feel able, but I am not really sure that is the thing here, it's more that she feel good about herself buying stuff to you, and you, already insecure, see those as hurtful to your already "damaged" ego.
My recommendation, is to get yourself to a place where you first don't take such things as a "punch to the gut" but instead learn to appreciate your current situation and maybe also your sister for supporting you. The reason behind her actions is of secondary importance. And in the process of doing so, also take care of your own situation, get a job, your own income, etc.
I would recommend E2. It have helped me tremendously with my situation at home (I have a mom that show some of the tendencies that you describe in your sister). It doesn't affect me anymore, at least not as much as before. Now I decide how I feel about things.