Day 13. This morning on my coffee run, I noticed that the majority of beautiful women I encountered on my walk were blondes. I usually don’t take notice of this as I appreciate a beautiful woman in all forms but today was quite unusual for me. I must mention that my past relationships were blonde women with the only exception being one red head and one brunette, so I tend to gravitate towards blondes more.
I’m starting to see more heads turning from women to check me out whether in passing or from a distance. I noticed one lady looking at me from a good 30 feet away. As I turned to walk opposite from where she is walking I noticed from my pheriperal vision that she took another look at me. Also noticing that when a group of two or more ladies are walking towards me, at least one would turn their head and check me out as I pass.
I had my first brothersome issue that I need to deal with and let go. There was someone who I expected to be in the office today who didn’t show up because of illness. Whether it was true or not, it really bothered me because I have a set plan for the day and because one element of the plan was not present, the universe had something else in mind, it really bugged me. It brought to light my need to try and control the narrative to the way I wanted it to the exact detail. This control freak issue, per say, has served as a detriment to me in the past that I need to fix.
Not everything will go as planned and I need to let things go or else it will eat at me and can be self destructive. Just let the universe do it’s thing. The things I want will occur, it will just take a different route than I anticipated.
Tonight I’m going to cut back to two loops as I sleep. I noticed I woke up during loop 3 and couldn’t go back to sleep. I wanted to power through loops 3 and 4 during the night. I was able to do it but couldn’t fall back asleep until loop 4 was complete. It strange because I never had this issue with four loops on either version A or B until last night.
Edit: As of 9:30 PM CST I have been fighting a bit of an internal battle with my subconscious. Some bad memories of a particular lady I like from over a year ago started to resurface. However my relationship has changed with her in the last four months that has become quite amacible to the point that we now have sexual tension between us. I took it as my subconscious trying to resist the script by bringing back the bad memories as a means to keep me from evolving.
So....my internal conversation with my subconscious went the way of giving thanks for protecting me and my heart from pain in the past but I have new data that will change that and lead towards success. The data is the recent four months experience with the lady and the DMSI script. Take the data, execute it and work with the universe to achieve the goals.
After reading Shannon’s input in another journal entry regarding a minimum number of loops that is keeping around resistance, I’ve decided to double down. I’m staying with four loops tonight.
I’m starting to see more heads turning from women to check me out whether in passing or from a distance. I noticed one lady looking at me from a good 30 feet away. As I turned to walk opposite from where she is walking I noticed from my pheriperal vision that she took another look at me. Also noticing that when a group of two or more ladies are walking towards me, at least one would turn their head and check me out as I pass.
I had my first brothersome issue that I need to deal with and let go. There was someone who I expected to be in the office today who didn’t show up because of illness. Whether it was true or not, it really bothered me because I have a set plan for the day and because one element of the plan was not present, the universe had something else in mind, it really bugged me. It brought to light my need to try and control the narrative to the way I wanted it to the exact detail. This control freak issue, per say, has served as a detriment to me in the past that I need to fix.
Not everything will go as planned and I need to let things go or else it will eat at me and can be self destructive. Just let the universe do it’s thing. The things I want will occur, it will just take a different route than I anticipated.
Tonight I’m going to cut back to two loops as I sleep. I noticed I woke up during loop 3 and couldn’t go back to sleep. I wanted to power through loops 3 and 4 during the night. I was able to do it but couldn’t fall back asleep until loop 4 was complete. It strange because I never had this issue with four loops on either version A or B until last night.
Edit: As of 9:30 PM CST I have been fighting a bit of an internal battle with my subconscious. Some bad memories of a particular lady I like from over a year ago started to resurface. However my relationship has changed with her in the last four months that has become quite amacible to the point that we now have sexual tension between us. I took it as my subconscious trying to resist the script by bringing back the bad memories as a means to keep me from evolving.
So....my internal conversation with my subconscious went the way of giving thanks for protecting me and my heart from pain in the past but I have new data that will change that and lead towards success. The data is the recent four months experience with the lady and the DMSI script. Take the data, execute it and work with the universe to achieve the goals.
After reading Shannon’s input in another journal entry regarding a minimum number of loops that is keeping around resistance, I’ve decided to double down. I’m staying with four loops tonight.
