06-10-2018, 12:28 PM
What I'm holding on to is the truth that DMSI is seeking to make me sexually irresistible. Me being self-supporting seems very attached to that.
I have judged myself severely using worldly and cultural financial standards, and in response, I've melted into the background of life so, in effect, I'd not attract attention. I've been very successful in this. I have a college degree, but work for almost minimum wage for a garbage company. My current reason for staying has been the physical activity, the openings I've been successful with, and also the male relationships I learn from--which is my main motivation every day I'm there. For I grew up with brothers.
I'll most likely keep this job even if I am successful with my YT business. It's the closest "family" I know, being honest. ...............And.........all while I wrote that I remembered DMSI's "felt" goals: not being a victim in someone else's (corporate) game; building something I can grow with, and not being and feeling like a small child around men. I'm just taking it one day at a time though. More will come.
DMSI is keeping my eyes open, for I am so very capable of many things.
I'll work on my video tonight
I have judged myself severely using worldly and cultural financial standards, and in response, I've melted into the background of life so, in effect, I'd not attract attention. I've been very successful in this. I have a college degree, but work for almost minimum wage for a garbage company. My current reason for staying has been the physical activity, the openings I've been successful with, and also the male relationships I learn from--which is my main motivation every day I'm there. For I grew up with brothers.
I'll most likely keep this job even if I am successful with my YT business. It's the closest "family" I know, being honest. ...............And.........all while I wrote that I remembered DMSI's "felt" goals: not being a victim in someone else's (corporate) game; building something I can grow with, and not being and feeling like a small child around men. I'm just taking it one day at a time though. More will come.
DMSI is keeping my eyes open, for I am so very capable of many things.
I'll work on my video tonight
I want to be FREE!
