05-29-2018, 04:13 PM
(05-29-2018, 06:52 AM)Shannon Wrote: That is really interesting how you did capture feeling and express what you've been writing about.
Thanks Shannon. It's one of the things I love about music. It bypasses the words. It's like being able to make a statement in the most direct way possible, no filler or anything.
I've decided I'm just going to be sticking with two loops instead of increasing. At least for a month. I want to observe how two loops effects me as much as possible.
Right now I'm really working on my negative thinking. I thought I had it under control and I could just stop it through sheer willpower. But it turns out the negative thoughts were still going, but I lost conscious awareness of them. I think maybe part of me didn't want to admit I still had these negative thoughts. But allowing them and addressing them is way better than trying to just fight them off and expend all that energy. In a way I've been seeing just how much more emotional healing I need to do and it overwhelms me. It's like crap, I thought I went pretty deep before but it just keeps coming. When does it really end? Of course constantly telling myself I was done and there was nothing left to heal seemed to be a way to avoid getting to the really important stuff that needed to heal the most.
INFP
