05-24-2018, 11:00 AM
(05-24-2018, 10:13 AM)Greenduck Wrote: Hi therere,
I know that I am bitching a lot about my mother over here, and I am doing so to my therapist also, but what the hell, I need the ventilation somewhere, right?
My mom have been away for 10 days and it have been amazing. Now she is back, and just her presence make me full of anger. It triggers something in me, her whole behavior, her being so smart, righteous, and talking to me like a child. Her manipulative tricks she use on my dad, even though it doesn't affect him so much, it still make him seek validation from her from time to time. She is making people aronud her weaker, just because she need validation on her weak world view. Everyone need to suffer as she does, because then it can't be anything wrong with her. She could never go see someone to "work on herself" just to cry out about all her problems. When you ask her, she gets all defensive and run away.
F*ck I am sorry, I know she is my mother and all, but I really have big problems with that women because of how she treats people.
10 days, it was nice, I needed it to recover. To become stronger and more versatile towards her attacks. Im going to be a bitch back now, really. Not in the way she is, but more in like "takign care of myself" and not satisfying her needs, and being afraid of the consequensse and her becoming angry just because you say no to her. This is my time, and I am not getting sucked into that again. I'm going to hold my ground when I need to.
So.. a lot of anger, but I am trying to use the anger to heal myself in someway
If you're playing her game, you're already losing.
