day 6
Broke nofap today, yet for some reason Im aware of many things to tackle head on, one is, being affected by my surroundings. I want to be 100% soevereign and rock solid frame. being the king I fucking am. This massive confidence comes up after the streak breaking. my mind is propelling massively right now, like going hard and freeflowing like a raging river/water stream. Some stuff seems to stem from my childhood, the whole being affected by my surroundings, being sucked into these patterns over and over again. I want to be this leader, this guy that lives his life, being inspiring, being fully free. I crave freedom which seems to lay at the core of it all.
Im tackling all addictions. Nicotine is still coming up at times, but is lessening.
I walk like a boss, a king, am thinking about wealth and why. at times I wonder why I have this inclination lately in designer and wanting to blow up. It seems almost like destined to be so, but its only the beginning. On AM6 I walked around with the mindset "no-one would mess with me"and take it from there, perhaps this is autopilot in a way that is pushing me, making me aware of my environment only to end into sex with women. I seduce wherever I go. I seduce E, I seduce P tho i dont care, I seduce T, whom I speak online, which is growingly clingy to me.
Perhaps this feeling way to awesome and the attitude is another escapism. Like, feeling so satisfied without women that im playing with them or downright ignore them, out of self amusement and dickish behaviour, only to feel sad afterwards.
I can close anything and everyone. E acted full on submissive, other woman, P, is firing questions to me, keeps telling me how she loves it to be with me. Im like, bich, im hyper focussed, who dis bich?"
Anyways, Im strongly craving the blow up, just for fuck sakes, and to take the whole country with me in the hype, the gig, setting dominance. Everything is possible, and, at times its looks like "big shotting"but yet, its honest to me, raw expression. Im destined for this shit.
Anyways, Im pretty much getting to the point that Im done figuring it all out and letting DMSI just do its things, allowing it and trusting the process.
Its hella confusing to me.
What the hell is even happening. its like im coping with the whole new level im at. My mind literally just to told "what is happening to me?" I want to fucking cry. so many things rolling now, its literally blowing my mind. Also, my game is on another level. Last few days I noticed how guys are just clueless, like displaying disdain and downtalking ( all for playfull negging, but this shit is just low value displayin ) and then walking away sour, or going blue pill full on, like, buying shit for a girl like she is some prostitute and the guy has no value to offer whatsoever, thus selling himself short through substitutes.
Enough ranting.
Broke nofap today, yet for some reason Im aware of many things to tackle head on, one is, being affected by my surroundings. I want to be 100% soevereign and rock solid frame. being the king I fucking am. This massive confidence comes up after the streak breaking. my mind is propelling massively right now, like going hard and freeflowing like a raging river/water stream. Some stuff seems to stem from my childhood, the whole being affected by my surroundings, being sucked into these patterns over and over again. I want to be this leader, this guy that lives his life, being inspiring, being fully free. I crave freedom which seems to lay at the core of it all.
Im tackling all addictions. Nicotine is still coming up at times, but is lessening.
I walk like a boss, a king, am thinking about wealth and why. at times I wonder why I have this inclination lately in designer and wanting to blow up. It seems almost like destined to be so, but its only the beginning. On AM6 I walked around with the mindset "no-one would mess with me"and take it from there, perhaps this is autopilot in a way that is pushing me, making me aware of my environment only to end into sex with women. I seduce wherever I go. I seduce E, I seduce P tho i dont care, I seduce T, whom I speak online, which is growingly clingy to me.
Perhaps this feeling way to awesome and the attitude is another escapism. Like, feeling so satisfied without women that im playing with them or downright ignore them, out of self amusement and dickish behaviour, only to feel sad afterwards.
I can close anything and everyone. E acted full on submissive, other woman, P, is firing questions to me, keeps telling me how she loves it to be with me. Im like, bich, im hyper focussed, who dis bich?"
Anyways, Im strongly craving the blow up, just for fuck sakes, and to take the whole country with me in the hype, the gig, setting dominance. Everything is possible, and, at times its looks like "big shotting"but yet, its honest to me, raw expression. Im destined for this shit.
Anyways, Im pretty much getting to the point that Im done figuring it all out and letting DMSI just do its things, allowing it and trusting the process.
Its hella confusing to me.
What the hell is even happening. its like im coping with the whole new level im at. My mind literally just to told "what is happening to me?" I want to fucking cry. so many things rolling now, its literally blowing my mind. Also, my game is on another level. Last few days I noticed how guys are just clueless, like displaying disdain and downtalking ( all for playfull negging, but this shit is just low value displayin ) and then walking away sour, or going blue pill full on, like, buying shit for a girl like she is some prostitute and the guy has no value to offer whatsoever, thus selling himself short through substitutes.Enough ranting.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
