05-15-2018, 02:50 AM
You ever feel like you're behind on everything? So many years of my life were lost to depression and anxiety. Now I have to catch up with everything. And it's got me super stressed out because I feel like there's so much I have to do and I'm so far away from reaching any of it. Yet the world doesn't stop spinning, nobody cares that I never really developed the best coping skills or that I still have remnants of social anxiety that make getting through the day tough.
I should be aiming for small steps that lead me on a path to getting to where I want to be. But I feel like I'm running out of time so I try to cram everything and then get overwhelmed. I know small steps is the solution though, anything else and I fill my brain with way too much and then get anxious when I don't get anything done. Classic procrastination.
One of the things that has been really bugging me is jobs and the whole song and dance of making enough money or just asking for more. Talk about self worth issues. I tend to screw myself over by being too afraid to accept more money. Maybe I think more money equals more responsibility and more "debt" to the company. I don't know. I'm just jealous of people who are super confident and just bs their way through life. It's a game to them and they don't care or worry. I just hate how in the US you're rewarded for being sociopathic and willing to step on others as well as manipulate everyone through charisma while having no real skill set.
I should be aiming for small steps that lead me on a path to getting to where I want to be. But I feel like I'm running out of time so I try to cram everything and then get overwhelmed. I know small steps is the solution though, anything else and I fill my brain with way too much and then get anxious when I don't get anything done. Classic procrastination.
One of the things that has been really bugging me is jobs and the whole song and dance of making enough money or just asking for more. Talk about self worth issues. I tend to screw myself over by being too afraid to accept more money. Maybe I think more money equals more responsibility and more "debt" to the company. I don't know. I'm just jealous of people who are super confident and just bs their way through life. It's a game to them and they don't care or worry. I just hate how in the US you're rewarded for being sociopathic and willing to step on others as well as manipulate everyone through charisma while having no real skill set.
INFP
