05-14-2018, 05:20 AM
Right now I am having thoughts of switching to "B". The reason is because I am feeling as if I am not motivated enough to carry out tasks which requires a little bit of push.
I mean yesterday I felt as if I should read stuff related to the training program I am gonna enroll in but then I Googled the stuff and read like for 40 secs and then motivation gone..
The problem here is that I am kinda ADHD type. When I feel high or if I am simulated then I am not able to channel that motivational energy into productive tasks...Its like a sudden spike. Inshort I can't focus my energy / Fucked up focus.
I have suffered from lack of concentration for a long long time... My memory was awesome even before I fell into depression and shit but my concentration was always shit.. Would take me hours to do stuff what my friends would do in minutes.
I once read somewhere people who can't focus have issues that they havnt solve. So when they try to focus then all of a sudden all unresolved issues suddenly Come up.. Which cause distraction and we get distracted as a means to escape from those problems.
Also, tbh I feel to lazy even to jump on "B". Kinda enjoying this lazy behaviour on"A"...
I mean yesterday I felt as if I should read stuff related to the training program I am gonna enroll in but then I Googled the stuff and read like for 40 secs and then motivation gone..
The problem here is that I am kinda ADHD type. When I feel high or if I am simulated then I am not able to channel that motivational energy into productive tasks...Its like a sudden spike. Inshort I can't focus my energy / Fucked up focus.
I have suffered from lack of concentration for a long long time... My memory was awesome even before I fell into depression and shit but my concentration was always shit.. Would take me hours to do stuff what my friends would do in minutes.
I once read somewhere people who can't focus have issues that they havnt solve. So when they try to focus then all of a sudden all unresolved issues suddenly Come up.. Which cause distraction and we get distracted as a means to escape from those problems.
Also, tbh I feel to lazy even to jump on "B". Kinda enjoying this lazy behaviour on"A"...
