05-13-2018, 08:18 AM
Stage 6, Day 24:
- Today my voice seems much deeper and authoritative without me making any efforts for it to sound that way.
- Yesterday, we held a birthday party for my Daughter even though her bday isn't until May 15th. They day of, a lot of things still needed to be done and it was kind of a mess. I found myself stepping up a lot to get things done without being asked, where as in the past, I would've asked what needed to be done and waited for directions due to being unsure.
- I noticed yesterday that my wife seemed kind of nervous and very submissive when we interacted. When she gets stressed she can be very unpleasant to be around, but every time she addressed me she spoke cautiously. Just 6 months ago, she would've spoke in an angry tone to me, just like everyone else.
- Last night my wife called me after she left and asked is she could come over to sleep before going to work. She had worked all night the previous night, and stayed up through the day to set things up for our Daughter's party. She told me she almost ran off the road 3 times due to falling asleep behind the wheel. I told her to come. As much negativity as we've lived through, I don't wish any harm or death upon her. She pulled up, and suddenly remembered that she left some things home that she needed. I told her that I'd go get them but she began being stubborn, which is one of the things I can't stand about her. Here's where the Alpha male programming took over because even though I knew what I was saying It's like I couldn't control it. Like one part of me took over while the other watched. In so many words I got on her case and told her to get her ass inside and go to sleep instead of putting herself in any further danger, and made no apologies for it. She got right out of the car, and went inside to go to sleep without saying anything back.
- Today my voice seems much deeper and authoritative without me making any efforts for it to sound that way.
- Yesterday, we held a birthday party for my Daughter even though her bday isn't until May 15th. They day of, a lot of things still needed to be done and it was kind of a mess. I found myself stepping up a lot to get things done without being asked, where as in the past, I would've asked what needed to be done and waited for directions due to being unsure.
- I noticed yesterday that my wife seemed kind of nervous and very submissive when we interacted. When she gets stressed she can be very unpleasant to be around, but every time she addressed me she spoke cautiously. Just 6 months ago, she would've spoke in an angry tone to me, just like everyone else.
- Last night my wife called me after she left and asked is she could come over to sleep before going to work. She had worked all night the previous night, and stayed up through the day to set things up for our Daughter's party. She told me she almost ran off the road 3 times due to falling asleep behind the wheel. I told her to come. As much negativity as we've lived through, I don't wish any harm or death upon her. She pulled up, and suddenly remembered that she left some things home that she needed. I told her that I'd go get them but she began being stubborn, which is one of the things I can't stand about her. Here's where the Alpha male programming took over because even though I knew what I was saying It's like I couldn't control it. Like one part of me took over while the other watched. In so many words I got on her case and told her to get her ass inside and go to sleep instead of putting herself in any further danger, and made no apologies for it. She got right out of the car, and went inside to go to sleep without saying anything back.
