10-5-18 1 loop DMSI B day 1.
Execution is granted. Ran B this morning after yesterdays break after running A. Lots of stuff coming up and came up,, almost like my mind went out of control causing thoughts to become really strong in imagery thinking, making all kind of weird correlations.
Anyways, B is relentless. Im already executing and executing harder and harder will be it. No doubts about that. I notice how several girls are competing on a subconscious level for me. Im excited, happy, non needy, amazed and buzzing greatly.
My eyes locking them make them cream their pants. The eye fucking, the shaking in their voice, the subtle switches of their attraction manifesting in sexy conversations..
Anyways, B is a relief. A has a strong impact. It makes me face stuff head on. Acknowledging causing it to break through. Im still having a certain war goin on inside but having re-occuring visions of being carefree and totally sexual entity. Im almost in girls their head through DMSI...
Im really wanting this healing/clearing to be over with. Like, clicking and having it an none issue, yet the healing and clearing is so sweet tho, like gimme more, heal me fufther.
Some parts of me still hold on. Like being totally on the spot and holding frame maximum causes still tension. Like slipping in and out of it. Its almost 2 different worlds. One is being totally IDGAF being leader, alpha and whatever. Another is almost like the opposite.
I want to freedom to escalate effortless and just without any doubt or insecurity poppin up. B might cruise me through this.
On A I had moments of pushing through, only to recognize the key afterwards, as if snapping out of hypnosis and hyperfocus.
I do also notice how many people live in limitations and scoff those seeing through them like it directly hurts and attacks their programming. Its really rubbing the wrong way on me. Also, as im growing, improving further, I start to see my immediate circle of friends are almost stuck in an teenage loop. There isnt vision goin on, im associating with the more succesfull, the higher ups, and tbh, im never a day off which is great and liberating. Just work on everything everyday. Their is so much greatness goin on, to go on with, and yet, their is a huge mefiocre focus and low energy goin on nowadays.
Anyways, Im getting off topic. I notice im maturing. Im seeing the stuckness of peoole around me, and dont want any of that. Im closing off chapters and recignize how im still modelling myself slightly after people of succes, while my core is omnipotent. Im already succesfull and all that. I dont need to deal with all kinds off people, no need to cause to think different, only to make me Sexually Irresistable. Its giving a sense of relief to fully embrace all of myself, all of it now. This is making me pretty much euphoric.
Im in this for myself. For it all and even something bigger then me, like expanding myself hugely and massively.
Execution is granted. Ran B this morning after yesterdays break after running A. Lots of stuff coming up and came up,, almost like my mind went out of control causing thoughts to become really strong in imagery thinking, making all kind of weird correlations.
Anyways, B is relentless. Im already executing and executing harder and harder will be it. No doubts about that. I notice how several girls are competing on a subconscious level for me. Im excited, happy, non needy, amazed and buzzing greatly.
My eyes locking them make them cream their pants. The eye fucking, the shaking in their voice, the subtle switches of their attraction manifesting in sexy conversations..
Anyways, B is a relief. A has a strong impact. It makes me face stuff head on. Acknowledging causing it to break through. Im still having a certain war goin on inside but having re-occuring visions of being carefree and totally sexual entity. Im almost in girls their head through DMSI...
Im really wanting this healing/clearing to be over with. Like, clicking and having it an none issue, yet the healing and clearing is so sweet tho, like gimme more, heal me fufther.
Some parts of me still hold on. Like being totally on the spot and holding frame maximum causes still tension. Like slipping in and out of it. Its almost 2 different worlds. One is being totally IDGAF being leader, alpha and whatever. Another is almost like the opposite.
I want to freedom to escalate effortless and just without any doubt or insecurity poppin up. B might cruise me through this.
On A I had moments of pushing through, only to recognize the key afterwards, as if snapping out of hypnosis and hyperfocus.
I do also notice how many people live in limitations and scoff those seeing through them like it directly hurts and attacks their programming. Its really rubbing the wrong way on me. Also, as im growing, improving further, I start to see my immediate circle of friends are almost stuck in an teenage loop. There isnt vision goin on, im associating with the more succesfull, the higher ups, and tbh, im never a day off which is great and liberating. Just work on everything everyday. Their is so much greatness goin on, to go on with, and yet, their is a huge mefiocre focus and low energy goin on nowadays.
Anyways, Im getting off topic. I notice im maturing. Im seeing the stuckness of peoole around me, and dont want any of that. Im closing off chapters and recignize how im still modelling myself slightly after people of succes, while my core is omnipotent. Im already succesfull and all that. I dont need to deal with all kinds off people, no need to cause to think different, only to make me Sexually Irresistable. Its giving a sense of relief to fully embrace all of myself, all of it now. This is making me pretty much euphoric.
Im in this for myself. For it all and even something bigger then me, like expanding myself hugely and massively.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
