05-04-2018, 03:01 PM
Well looks like some huge resistance came in,I was having thoughts of changing subs and along with that my sexual urges increase and Idk i fapped idk like 4-5 times..Good thing that I didnt watch porn and dont feel like so I think Noporn module is working..
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Anyway my brother was listening to this song "The Cranberries - Zombie "
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Ejga4kJUts
He was listening this for past 1-2 days and I liked it and I told him that this this song feels kinda old but has deep meaning and he was like "Yeah..Old is Gold ..No shit songs like today with no meaning"
Anyway today he was playing this again as I was feeling bad/sad/depressed about my life and myself..He suddenly told me the singer in this song "DIED"...I was shocked (idk why).
So I started googling and then started reading about "Dolores O'Riordan"..While I was doing all this I felt this sadness that she died way too early and how she struggled with her problems for so many years...
I was listening to "Zombie" and I had this deep revelation that
"Life is very short and I cant just sit around and expect things to change on its own. What if I have only like another 20 years to live? I have already wasted like 7 years with my fucked up mental issues..I cant expect to waste another 7 years..I cant waste my life anymore..Who knows what tomorrow will bring..Who knows how long will I live? I dont have much time..I need to achieve things and be successful before my time finishes."
" If I keep avoiding people,event,situation where I fear people will think I am stupid then I will never will be able to learn anything in life and I will LIVE LIKE A STUPID and then will DIE LIKE A STUPID."
Life is short and I cant waste anymore time..
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Anyway my brother was listening to this song "The Cranberries - Zombie "
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Ejga4kJUts
He was listening this for past 1-2 days and I liked it and I told him that this this song feels kinda old but has deep meaning and he was like "Yeah..Old is Gold ..No shit songs like today with no meaning"
Anyway today he was playing this again as I was feeling bad/sad/depressed about my life and myself..He suddenly told me the singer in this song "DIED"...I was shocked (idk why).
So I started googling and then started reading about "Dolores O'Riordan"..While I was doing all this I felt this sadness that she died way too early and how she struggled with her problems for so many years...
I was listening to "Zombie" and I had this deep revelation that
"Life is very short and I cant just sit around and expect things to change on its own. What if I have only like another 20 years to live? I have already wasted like 7 years with my fucked up mental issues..I cant expect to waste another 7 years..I cant waste my life anymore..Who knows what tomorrow will bring..Who knows how long will I live? I dont have much time..I need to achieve things and be successful before my time finishes."
" If I keep avoiding people,event,situation where I fear people will think I am stupid then I will never will be able to learn anything in life and I will LIVE LIKE A STUPID and then will DIE LIKE A STUPID."
Life is short and I cant waste anymore time..
