Hi there,
Hope you can help me with my current scenario, I will try to explain it as good as I can so you can help me assess the situation correctly. I'm looking for the next step to take, and to see if a subliminal can help me with my current issues:
1) Being ungrounded
2) Having poor boundaries
Number 1 basically is about that I don't really feel "here" and "present" - that's the best way I can describe it. Also I'm pretty fearful about just normal things, like going to the store, and don't feel safe and "inside my body". This have become a lot better since I started doing root chakra meditation (been doing it for almost 1 month now and before I was maybe 1/10 or 2/10 grounded and now I would say I'm around 6/10 grounded.
Number 2 is that I have a bit problem with keeping boundaries towards other people - like separating what is me and what is you - "feeling myself" if you want. The effect of this is that I don't really know what I want, kind of a lack of direction, and also I am pretty vulnerable to other peoples feelings as I have problems with setting (and feeling) boundaries. This have also become better, I am working with doing the Wim-hof breathing and cold-showers, and also regularly train martial arts and kundaliniyoga. Before it was a 0/10 and now maybe a 4/10. The goal is to feel just present with myself, able to set boundaries, be happy, spontaneous. For you working with chakras, this is about strenghtening and balancing my solar plexus chakra.
These issues did become very apparent after I got burned out. I realize that I may not always have been so grounded, a bit worried as a child, and I have also previously have had problems setting boundaries which stems from growing up with a mother with narcissistic tendencies (she only have the ability to care for her own emotions and can't accept/understand other peoples emotions).
I went with doing AM 6.0 arond 2 years ago, but I couldn't handle it. I was at my worst place, and it was litteraly to much. I started getting headaches, and lost track of everything. I overdid it. I was ungrounded then, and doing AM just made me a terrible person, I know that it takes you through some self-discovery, but I had no control over it, I became some kind of energy-thief, narcissistic, scary person. I guess I wasn't ready for it, and being in a bad place and putting that kind of pressure on yourself (as I guess AM growth do) just made everything go overboard, instead of guiding me towards getting stronger and better. I lost myself - literally. Not like just "i don't know who I am because I act so different now" but like "there is just an empty cold hole where the human in me should be and I have no warmth inside of me just cold scary stuff, what the hell is this, where am I"-panic feeling which totally consumed everything of me.
I don't outjudge AM as I guess many people have had great use of it, but I just think that you need some tracktion and emotional health to start with to be able to have use of the program. I didn't, and I won't make that misstake again, but now I want to prepare myself, and work on the things I mentioned above. I have lost contact with myself, and I am working everyday to get back to that once again, if you have any recommendations I would gladly accept it. I want to be happy again, to be myself, confident, with a direction, with passion, creativity, joy and stability. I am fully aware of that it take work to get there, and I am putting in a great amount of work right now, but love to find something that could further guide me and help me on the way.
Sorry for long post, but I just wanted you to understand and make up your minds about my situation.
Thanks!
Hope you can help me with my current scenario, I will try to explain it as good as I can so you can help me assess the situation correctly. I'm looking for the next step to take, and to see if a subliminal can help me with my current issues:
1) Being ungrounded
2) Having poor boundaries
Number 1 basically is about that I don't really feel "here" and "present" - that's the best way I can describe it. Also I'm pretty fearful about just normal things, like going to the store, and don't feel safe and "inside my body". This have become a lot better since I started doing root chakra meditation (been doing it for almost 1 month now and before I was maybe 1/10 or 2/10 grounded and now I would say I'm around 6/10 grounded.
Number 2 is that I have a bit problem with keeping boundaries towards other people - like separating what is me and what is you - "feeling myself" if you want. The effect of this is that I don't really know what I want, kind of a lack of direction, and also I am pretty vulnerable to other peoples feelings as I have problems with setting (and feeling) boundaries. This have also become better, I am working with doing the Wim-hof breathing and cold-showers, and also regularly train martial arts and kundaliniyoga. Before it was a 0/10 and now maybe a 4/10. The goal is to feel just present with myself, able to set boundaries, be happy, spontaneous. For you working with chakras, this is about strenghtening and balancing my solar plexus chakra.
These issues did become very apparent after I got burned out. I realize that I may not always have been so grounded, a bit worried as a child, and I have also previously have had problems setting boundaries which stems from growing up with a mother with narcissistic tendencies (she only have the ability to care for her own emotions and can't accept/understand other peoples emotions).
I went with doing AM 6.0 arond 2 years ago, but I couldn't handle it. I was at my worst place, and it was litteraly to much. I started getting headaches, and lost track of everything. I overdid it. I was ungrounded then, and doing AM just made me a terrible person, I know that it takes you through some self-discovery, but I had no control over it, I became some kind of energy-thief, narcissistic, scary person. I guess I wasn't ready for it, and being in a bad place and putting that kind of pressure on yourself (as I guess AM growth do) just made everything go overboard, instead of guiding me towards getting stronger and better. I lost myself - literally. Not like just "i don't know who I am because I act so different now" but like "there is just an empty cold hole where the human in me should be and I have no warmth inside of me just cold scary stuff, what the hell is this, where am I"-panic feeling which totally consumed everything of me.
I don't outjudge AM as I guess many people have had great use of it, but I just think that you need some tracktion and emotional health to start with to be able to have use of the program. I didn't, and I won't make that misstake again, but now I want to prepare myself, and work on the things I mentioned above. I have lost contact with myself, and I am working everyday to get back to that once again, if you have any recommendations I would gladly accept it. I want to be happy again, to be myself, confident, with a direction, with passion, creativity, joy and stability. I am fully aware of that it take work to get there, and I am putting in a great amount of work right now, but love to find something that could further guide me and help me on the way.
Sorry for long post, but I just wanted you to understand and make up your minds about my situation.
Thanks!
