Shannon's Journal Discussion Volume 3

[K-Train]

@Shannon , is it possible for a part of your subconscious that has started complying to the script after resisting to somehow start resisting the script again? Thanks

Of course it is. In fact it's common for people to experience a situation where the program gets them to make progress, then that progress triggers fear, the fear stops the progress, and the process repeats. It's indicative that you are making progress, but too much progress at a time is too scary to handle. So your subconscious acclimates, acts, acclimates, acts, acclimates, acts, etc. in that case.

I wholeheartedly agree with this. In fact, I'll go so far as to say I'm probably the poster child for this. Before beginning with V3.2 I was getting awesome TID effects and even during the first few weeks of actual V3.2 usage I was executing. No desire for porn, nothing. Just execution. Then I just shut down and the fapping restarted, the results went away, and it was back to "normal" although I still felt the program working in other ways.

Then about a week or two ago I had a breakthrough with my subC and started executing again. I then had the urge to fap and that's when it happened. Two sides of my mind started arguing. On one end was V3.2 which had created (or unveiled) the new K-Train who was urging me to NOT fap and to keep executing. The old K-Train argued back using some BS logic. It was honestly amazing to witness because while this was going on I was physically frozen on the spot. Like watching two very real people arguing in front of you.

V3.2 was very VERY persuasive. It was on the verge of winning the battle...BUT it lost in the end. As I mentioned to Shannon already V3.2 is much more persuasive than V3.1. The fact that it nearly overpowered years and years of BS programming and an obvious self-sabotage attempt is pretty amazing.

PS: I'm not saying fapping is bad. What I'm saying is that FOR ME fapping is typically used as an escape and self-sabotage attempt.