04-29-2018, 07:59 AM
Gonna get into some stuff here. But before I do I was reading reality transurfing again and this quote really made me think about my whole approach with dmsi and healing.
I was lying in bed this morning and decided to meditate a bit. I went inside myself and encountered that old familiar feeling of fear. Now I'm of the opinion that we can change our focus and be more positive and direct our thoughts. BUT, if we don't solve underlying issues they can be like the anchor that holds us back. Some people believe if you focus too much on issues you manifest more of them. Yes and no. As the above quote depicts.
I do think if you go into healing there is a possibility of getting too tied up to the story attached to it. I was guilty of this. I'd feel unlovable or unworthy and instead of recognizing that as something to move on from I'd focus too much on it. It would merge with my identity. Instead of feeling unworthy or unlovable I became unworthy and unlovable. But it makes sense if we go with the sub-selves idea of the mind. Each moment in life we have all formed some level of identity as it pertains to our environment. The important thing is being able to acknowledge those deeply held emotions, but no longer identify with them.
So the letting go process. I wanted it to be nice and clean and easy. But that was an expectation. And that very expectations prevented me from unlocking the more deeply held emotions within me. But in a way I guess some part of me wanted to protect myself from these painful feelings.
Quote:People think that obstacles can be overcome by action but in actual fact they ultimately experience whatever their dominant thoughts are. So if you choose to battle against the obstacles on your path you will experience an abundance of obstacles. If you are absorbed by thoughts about your own problems you will find that there are always problems in your life. Even if you take action to change the situation on your current life line on the material level it will not change the original script in the alternatives space. All you can effectively do is choose a different script. By trying to change parts of the script you do not like you inevitably get caught up thinking about what you do not like. Your thoughts are then successfully realised and you end up getting what you do not want.
I was lying in bed this morning and decided to meditate a bit. I went inside myself and encountered that old familiar feeling of fear. Now I'm of the opinion that we can change our focus and be more positive and direct our thoughts. BUT, if we don't solve underlying issues they can be like the anchor that holds us back. Some people believe if you focus too much on issues you manifest more of them. Yes and no. As the above quote depicts.
I do think if you go into healing there is a possibility of getting too tied up to the story attached to it. I was guilty of this. I'd feel unlovable or unworthy and instead of recognizing that as something to move on from I'd focus too much on it. It would merge with my identity. Instead of feeling unworthy or unlovable I became unworthy and unlovable. But it makes sense if we go with the sub-selves idea of the mind. Each moment in life we have all formed some level of identity as it pertains to our environment. The important thing is being able to acknowledge those deeply held emotions, but no longer identify with them.
So the letting go process. I wanted it to be nice and clean and easy. But that was an expectation. And that very expectations prevented me from unlocking the more deeply held emotions within me. But in a way I guess some part of me wanted to protect myself from these painful feelings.
INFP
