Million and millions of thoughts are crossing my mind and tbh I have no idea what's going on. All I can sense is that I am getting desperate to improve myself Mentally, Physically and Emotionally.
I have been the ADHD type my whole life. I struggled most in my academics life. I have never been able to perform good in studies. I used to sit down to study but it was impossible to stop my mind from wondering here and there. My parents, friends and teacher thought I was lazy. I wanted to perform but I couldn't calm down my mind. I have problem following things and instructions. Infact I am more of a guy who better learn from experience than books..
But there is also a benefit to this ADHD behaviour of mine. I am really good in finding the pattern to a particular problem (If I am interested in it). Also my intuition and ability to predict a certain thing is very high. Idk how to define it but. Its like I can see if something has potential on it or not..I just subconscious know that it has..
I did read that people with ADHD type has more of theta brainwave. IIRC the theta brainwave is a state where u get all the answers from the universe /subconscious. I think this is the reason I am so weird..The only area where these weird thinking pattern helped me the most is trading.. After all its all about prediction (Thanks to MLS-5.5G for amplifying it)
I always used to curse myself for being like this as I saw my younger brother and sister who got much more better at academic, social with time.. While I am here stuck in my own mind
I always used to get complains from my teachers for not performing well in class and coming last in exams sometimes even fail.
Even if someone today ask me that what have I achieved in life my only answer will be "Nothing".
I was already ADHD type but it got worse with depression and anxiety, OCD. I am combo pack of mental problem.
I go to meet my friends and they talk about different topics and tbh I don't feel as if I belong there. Mostly people talk about things which doesn't have any benifits.. Its like they do all this talk to get attention unconsciously.
I wonder how many emotional issues I left unresolved that lead to all this..Dont think there is any other way to solve this except face them.
I have been the ADHD type my whole life. I struggled most in my academics life. I have never been able to perform good in studies. I used to sit down to study but it was impossible to stop my mind from wondering here and there. My parents, friends and teacher thought I was lazy. I wanted to perform but I couldn't calm down my mind. I have problem following things and instructions. Infact I am more of a guy who better learn from experience than books..
But there is also a benefit to this ADHD behaviour of mine. I am really good in finding the pattern to a particular problem (If I am interested in it). Also my intuition and ability to predict a certain thing is very high. Idk how to define it but. Its like I can see if something has potential on it or not..I just subconscious know that it has..
I did read that people with ADHD type has more of theta brainwave. IIRC the theta brainwave is a state where u get all the answers from the universe /subconscious. I think this is the reason I am so weird..The only area where these weird thinking pattern helped me the most is trading.. After all its all about prediction (Thanks to MLS-5.5G for amplifying it)
I always used to curse myself for being like this as I saw my younger brother and sister who got much more better at academic, social with time.. While I am here stuck in my own mind
I always used to get complains from my teachers for not performing well in class and coming last in exams sometimes even fail.
Even if someone today ask me that what have I achieved in life my only answer will be "Nothing".
I was already ADHD type but it got worse with depression and anxiety, OCD. I am combo pack of mental problem.
I go to meet my friends and they talk about different topics and tbh I don't feel as if I belong there. Mostly people talk about things which doesn't have any benifits.. Its like they do all this talk to get attention unconsciously.
I wonder how many emotional issues I left unresolved that lead to all this..Dont think there is any other way to solve this except face them.
