Shannon's Journal Discussion Volume 3

[Shannon]

Hi Shannon,

The more I have been thinking about it lately the more I've been realizing that deep down I don't actually want to have sex (whether it's from fear of it or just disinterest idk), on the surface and on the outside I absolutely do but my mind is mainly focused on business, getting into shape, improving health, appearance, etc (which I have definitely noticed improvement in all of the above since TID for 3.2). Lately whenever I've had the chance to go to a social venues like a club and I've dreaded the thought of going everytime whereas before DMSI and up until early 3.0 usage I used to go out 2-3x a week.

I don't know what this is but I find it very annoying should I just wait until interest comes back or just force myself to go?

Is there barging physically I can do to move this along?

And i don't know or understand why it would be fear or anxiety in relation to sex or a relationship since I've had sex a number of times before, and I had a fwb for like 5-6 months during 3.1 usage.

My question is, is that really what you are naturally focused on subconsciously, or is that what your subconscious wants to focus on as an escape from executing DMSI and achieving it's goals?

What you have to realize is that the subconscious is largely emotional and irrational in its thinking, which is why standard hypnosis scripting usually doesn't work well for subliminals (for example) because hypnosis relies on the conscious mind to translate for the subconscious mind in order to work. The reason my subs work so well is that I have spent all this time learning how this irrational part of our awareness thinks and communicates and re-learning to "speak English" in the way it understands. The same language (American English) is understood in two very different ways by the conscious and subconscious minds, which is why we frequently end up needing to use tools like hypnosis, NLP and subliminals to change what our subconscious has accepted as being true and "runs as programming". The subconscious awareness (or some part[s] of it) also percieve time and reality very differently than the conscious mind does.

This means that the "reasons" that the subconscious may resist may be completely unexpected and unexplainable from a purely conscious point of view, which is what the conscious mind has to go on. For example, the conscious mind perceives time as a "point of now",. whereas my experiments consistently show that the subconscious perceives it as a smear, which encompasses several minutes (at least) into what the conscious mind perceives as being "the future". The subconscious also may have parts that experience reality as if they are still a different, younger age than the conscious mind experiences. You may have experienced a seriously traumatic event at 13, and that apparently can create a "snapshot" of yourself subconsciously that retains awareness at that level of understanding and maturity until it is healed. That part of you may object because of (irrational and currently potentially completely irrelevant) fear for your (it's) safety. Fear is not rational or logical. No emotion is. And the subconscious seems to largely (if not completely) rely on emotional awareness for its ability to think and it's brand of logic.

So fear of sex itself may not be your reason for resisting. Fear of women may not. Maybe you fear getting a bad reputation. Maybe you fear having an inappropriate woman respond, and her husband trying to come after you. Maybe you fear contracting an STD, or creating a pregnancy. Maybe you fear being rejected while having sex. The potential explanations are endless.

They don't all have to make sense, be logical or be anything that has any bearing whatsoever on reality! But they do matter to the objecting part of your subconscious, and that part is usually not logical in the way the conscious mind is. Since we are acting to use subliminals based on conscious choices and conscious scripting methods, the only way forward is to understand the difference between the conscious and subconscious minds, and work in the ways that the subconscious understands.

That is why I had to create my predictive models, and why it is taking so long for me to make progress to achieving all of my goals. Conversely, that is why I am making progress that is triggering more and more resistance, and why my subs are becoming more and more powerful and (when not resisted) successful.