04-14-2018, 06:52 AM
Feels like I'm finally reaching a place where I'm following the instruction for dmsi. Prior to this I was either detaching completely or trying to control the process and exerting way too much conscious control. Both were a control thing. Learning to trust and let go of control hasn't been easy, but I'm getting there.
I was reading that book reality transurfing again and the idea of excess importance being bad. And it's so true. I find the more importance I place on things the more energy goes into not screwing it up which consequently takes me further away from success. In the case of DMSI, trying to execute the script flawlessly caused me to over analyze way way too much. Instead of being present and just observing how DMSI manifests in my life. Same thing goes for women, the more you want them to be attracted to you the less they will be because you'll do things that scream desperation. That's not to say you detach from the goal of being attractive. You have to embody it and embrace it, not just merely want it.
My issue has always been waiting for that outside attraction before I decide to reassess my own beliefs instead of changing my beliefs and having that reflect my outer reality. In the first case I'm pretty much playing tug of war between two competing realities. I think the reason this is so hard to grasp on a deeper level because we've all been conditioned to believe that the world outside of us is independent of our own internal beliefs. So we base our beliefs on our actions and life events, sort of a top down approach vs a bottom up. Where you change your beliefs and have your reality manifest in that way.
One of the biggest hurdles I've been trying to overcome is letting go of that critical voice that says I'm faking this new identity I'm taking on. The transition between two competing realities and realizing that one identity is no more valid than the other. They are both ways of living in this world, it's just up to me which one I want to choose. I always thought I needed to dig down deep and sort of unearth the real authentic me. But now I realize that I'm ever changing, growing, the only "me" is the witness to what I decided to create in my life and that's it. By default I am the most authentic version of myself at all times, I don't need to try to find that. All I have to do is listen to my intuition and follow my own path in life.
I was reading that book reality transurfing again and the idea of excess importance being bad. And it's so true. I find the more importance I place on things the more energy goes into not screwing it up which consequently takes me further away from success. In the case of DMSI, trying to execute the script flawlessly caused me to over analyze way way too much. Instead of being present and just observing how DMSI manifests in my life. Same thing goes for women, the more you want them to be attracted to you the less they will be because you'll do things that scream desperation. That's not to say you detach from the goal of being attractive. You have to embody it and embrace it, not just merely want it.
My issue has always been waiting for that outside attraction before I decide to reassess my own beliefs instead of changing my beliefs and having that reflect my outer reality. In the first case I'm pretty much playing tug of war between two competing realities. I think the reason this is so hard to grasp on a deeper level because we've all been conditioned to believe that the world outside of us is independent of our own internal beliefs. So we base our beliefs on our actions and life events, sort of a top down approach vs a bottom up. Where you change your beliefs and have your reality manifest in that way.
One of the biggest hurdles I've been trying to overcome is letting go of that critical voice that says I'm faking this new identity I'm taking on. The transition between two competing realities and realizing that one identity is no more valid than the other. They are both ways of living in this world, it's just up to me which one I want to choose. I always thought I needed to dig down deep and sort of unearth the real authentic me. But now I realize that I'm ever changing, growing, the only "me" is the witness to what I decided to create in my life and that's it. By default I am the most authentic version of myself at all times, I don't need to try to find that. All I have to do is listen to my intuition and follow my own path in life.
INFP
