04-05-2018, 12:14 PM
Alright time for an update.
Just ran my loop of A to switch it up to evening. Yesterday was my break. I felt like a golden king, walking round, non needy, unfazed.
Now that I ran my loop, I feel golden. Non needy at all and see how this subs goin for me. Fapping, escorts, all of that, its an escape. Im hesitant to journal, unmotivated to do so. I see no poimt in it and rather bask and let the sub execute.
Yesterday, socializing was up. Had some great flow going on. Updated insta, and working with it to connect more. Going all out on it. Im feeling internally literally pike a millionaire and things start to manifest. When getting some food yesterday, the price was €5,=. Did pay 3,50 for it and reality bending seems to be the cause. When I say it starts internally ( as within, so without ) I mean it.
Anyway, played a bit with the women, short, somewhat older yet railable.
Me when paying "youre barely above the counter"
She all smiles " yeah, I need some platform *raises herself up a bit, and shows off*
Me: I figured so.
Subcommunication was sexual when doing this. Playing with girls of the bat is possible, like spinning them, aswell as fucking them in a very short timespan right of the meeting. Also having my more dominant side surface such as making and craving them for more and controlling the conversation without effort.
Im more stern in ways of holding my frame, like, not giving it away. Mission before niceness basically. Being nice to me translates a to much of an investment in the other frame. It comes eith territory to be honest with myself. To much waste of value. Dont be the biggest house in a 3rd world country as itll drag your value down. Im just honest with myself. Being aware of abundance and feeling it so. No damage control, let the chips fall where they fall and willingness to walk away. Now I am in the position to reject them. Not with my ego getting in the way, although there is something to say for ego. Im mightve ..
Am aware of what sources I allow in my reality and mind. Im associating with the high succesfull yet now my neediness is at a bare minimum. Im a celebrity, high status, confident superstar. I am.
When walking in venues, women check me out basically and with each loop its clear to me that the sexual drawing in getting stronger and stronger.
Im also detaching from patterns, observe, and flip yet non of this all matters at the moment.
Girl "A" contacted me yesterday out of the blue and mentioned she saw my snapchat, which was a gym snap. She send a bunch of smirk sexual emoticons and I directly kicked in autopilot. I didnt care tho. I was non needy, just some fun. That was basically it. The attachments that formed on 3.1 which caused bleed out where absent. Still no problem making it sexual tho. I went alpha up yet nocompensating compulsion. Just knowin im the prize.
My social flow is up and off. I flow at times, yet other times lil bit intraverted and patterns bit wonky. Not slurring, bit rather, lower confidence. Makes sense to me tho.
I have a growing sense that DMSI is upgrading me personally, readying me to attract. I deserve all girls. I attract them. This 2nd round seems to go even faster then the first in terms of growth. Feeling good, confident, abundant, h/c and improving me further.
Im also realizing my why. As to why entrepreneurship, my drive. Its clear to me now and all else clicks. Its wealth. Freedom. Value. I create. Im literally a creator from a core place.
Today I finally felt like crossing a treshold. Got obsessed with girls ( some hint to you Ben, as you came to mind ) and this is something worthwhile for me, as it is like accepting it all on a deeper level now. H/c succeeds. It connects me with my sexual nature on a deeper level and sets me more free.
Just ran my loop of A to switch it up to evening. Yesterday was my break. I felt like a golden king, walking round, non needy, unfazed.
Now that I ran my loop, I feel golden. Non needy at all and see how this subs goin for me. Fapping, escorts, all of that, its an escape. Im hesitant to journal, unmotivated to do so. I see no poimt in it and rather bask and let the sub execute.
Yesterday, socializing was up. Had some great flow going on. Updated insta, and working with it to connect more. Going all out on it. Im feeling internally literally pike a millionaire and things start to manifest. When getting some food yesterday, the price was €5,=. Did pay 3,50 for it and reality bending seems to be the cause. When I say it starts internally ( as within, so without ) I mean it.
Anyway, played a bit with the women, short, somewhat older yet railable.
Me when paying "youre barely above the counter"
She all smiles " yeah, I need some platform *raises herself up a bit, and shows off*
Me: I figured so.
Subcommunication was sexual when doing this. Playing with girls of the bat is possible, like spinning them, aswell as fucking them in a very short timespan right of the meeting. Also having my more dominant side surface such as making and craving them for more and controlling the conversation without effort.
Im more stern in ways of holding my frame, like, not giving it away. Mission before niceness basically. Being nice to me translates a to much of an investment in the other frame. It comes eith territory to be honest with myself. To much waste of value. Dont be the biggest house in a 3rd world country as itll drag your value down. Im just honest with myself. Being aware of abundance and feeling it so. No damage control, let the chips fall where they fall and willingness to walk away. Now I am in the position to reject them. Not with my ego getting in the way, although there is something to say for ego. Im mightve ..
Am aware of what sources I allow in my reality and mind. Im associating with the high succesfull yet now my neediness is at a bare minimum. Im a celebrity, high status, confident superstar. I am.
When walking in venues, women check me out basically and with each loop its clear to me that the sexual drawing in getting stronger and stronger.
Im also detaching from patterns, observe, and flip yet non of this all matters at the moment.
Girl "A" contacted me yesterday out of the blue and mentioned she saw my snapchat, which was a gym snap. She send a bunch of smirk sexual emoticons and I directly kicked in autopilot. I didnt care tho. I was non needy, just some fun. That was basically it. The attachments that formed on 3.1 which caused bleed out where absent. Still no problem making it sexual tho. I went alpha up yet nocompensating compulsion. Just knowin im the prize.
My social flow is up and off. I flow at times, yet other times lil bit intraverted and patterns bit wonky. Not slurring, bit rather, lower confidence. Makes sense to me tho.
I have a growing sense that DMSI is upgrading me personally, readying me to attract. I deserve all girls. I attract them. This 2nd round seems to go even faster then the first in terms of growth. Feeling good, confident, abundant, h/c and improving me further.
Im also realizing my why. As to why entrepreneurship, my drive. Its clear to me now and all else clicks. Its wealth. Freedom. Value. I create. Im literally a creator from a core place.
Today I finally felt like crossing a treshold. Got obsessed with girls ( some hint to you Ben, as you came to mind ) and this is something worthwhile for me, as it is like accepting it all on a deeper level now. H/c succeeds. It connects me with my sexual nature on a deeper level and sets me more free.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
