04-05-2018, 09:23 AM
(This post was last modified: 04-05-2018, 09:48 AM by DavisMind91.)
Stage 5, Day 18:
Went out last night for my female friend's bday. In the club environment, I really noticed how indifferent I've become romantically and sexually towards women...even gorgeous ones. I came to the club with a group when we went to the first club, but I literally ended up just getting into my own zone and dancing and jamming to music all on my own. I noticed a huge amount of stares from both men and women.
Probably got stares from dudes because I was the most relaxed in the club and doing my own thing, almost like no one else was in the building. At one point, I even noticed a bouncer mimicking my body language while I sat down to drink. At the second club, I had apparently made a couple of my homegirl's male friends jealous when she started grinding on me. Apparently one had sex with her a few weeks ago, the other has a crush on her but chose to date someone else.
Whatever contempt they felt towards me, they didn't make it known, I found this out after we left the second club. I started laughing at them both. I always considered guys who don't go for what they truly want with women silly when they get attached to a woman, without actually even being her boyfriend or husband, and become territorial towards other men and jealous. That behavior is one of the worst beta male traits there is in my opinion.
**Update:
Damn I should've just stayed logged in lol.
Update 1 - I went to pick up my lunch in the lobby, this young kid looking to get hired kept staring at me so I greeted him. I then asked if he was ever in the military because he looks very similar to someone I used to know. He said he wasn't but his sister was. He then began asking about my time in the service. We had a short but cool conversation. Afterwards he got up from his chair, shook my hand and thanked me for talking to him...wow. Told him I'd see him around.
Update 2- The female friend I mentioned earlier got flowers and balloons delivered to the job yesterday from two of her ex-boyfriends for her bday. The woman I sit next to said she had to ask me a question due to a rumor floating around. She said that someone started a rumor that I was the one that bought them. I laughed my ass off. I'm literally developing a reputation for being a playboy at my job and I'm not even doing a damn thing.
Went out last night for my female friend's bday. In the club environment, I really noticed how indifferent I've become romantically and sexually towards women...even gorgeous ones. I came to the club with a group when we went to the first club, but I literally ended up just getting into my own zone and dancing and jamming to music all on my own. I noticed a huge amount of stares from both men and women.
Probably got stares from dudes because I was the most relaxed in the club and doing my own thing, almost like no one else was in the building. At one point, I even noticed a bouncer mimicking my body language while I sat down to drink. At the second club, I had apparently made a couple of my homegirl's male friends jealous when she started grinding on me. Apparently one had sex with her a few weeks ago, the other has a crush on her but chose to date someone else.
Whatever contempt they felt towards me, they didn't make it known, I found this out after we left the second club. I started laughing at them both. I always considered guys who don't go for what they truly want with women silly when they get attached to a woman, without actually even being her boyfriend or husband, and become territorial towards other men and jealous. That behavior is one of the worst beta male traits there is in my opinion.
**Update:
Damn I should've just stayed logged in lol.
Update 1 - I went to pick up my lunch in the lobby, this young kid looking to get hired kept staring at me so I greeted him. I then asked if he was ever in the military because he looks very similar to someone I used to know. He said he wasn't but his sister was. He then began asking about my time in the service. We had a short but cool conversation. Afterwards he got up from his chair, shook my hand and thanked me for talking to him...wow. Told him I'd see him around.
Update 2- The female friend I mentioned earlier got flowers and balloons delivered to the job yesterday from two of her ex-boyfriends for her bday. The woman I sit next to said she had to ask me a question due to a rumor floating around. She said that someone started a rumor that I was the one that bought them. I laughed my ass off. I'm literally developing a reputation for being a playboy at my job and I'm not even doing a damn thing.
