Jakes DMSI 3.2B - *Closed!*

[Jake2015]

Wed 4th April 2018 - (40-2.1A) - 2nd cycle, 1st Day
Time: 12.30am on Thurs 5th.
Listening to loop as I type this update.

Yesterday was my 1 day break.
Yesterday until today not heard from fightgirl. She's arrived back in UK for easter so chilling.
Was in contact with MG, and thats all cool as were just friends.

Yesterday I drank over 4.5litres of water. Its my first day of actually doing that. No uni made it easy.

I seem to be more and more into PotsGirl, as in I think about her alot and at times about '10' too.

I seem to be wanting to sort my image out more too. I have always wanted to but I can now during the 1-2weeks easter break actually get onto doing something about it asap.

I must sort my sleep out.

Yesterday I had only 4hrs sleep, I woke at 7am which is awesome and made sure I stayed awake all day but then PotsGirls ex came over and we chatted about everything, especially how they broke up and we chatted till 3am. No idea how I managed to stay awake even with just water and no caffeine.

The Ex is now with another girl, theyve kissed and hes seeing how it goes with her. I asked him 'hypothetically' how he would feel if I dated PotsGirl and he said he wouldnt be happy at all and maybe it would break our friendship. Bros before hoes, but she aint no hoe so lets hope DMSI make this happen.

Honestly I would love DMSI to help me with PotsGirl and with '10' - but can it??

I woke late today after sleeping around 4 or 5am. - no surprise right.

Today I got woken by my friend who went into lectures and found it wasnt on and that now uni is officially closed. So he came over, we talked and then we decided to watch a new movie at the cinema for 4.10pm.

I got into the shower and we got into the taxi. I was getting anxious cos the taxi driver was so fucking slow!!!! I was getting irate inside that we might get to the movie late. So no idea if anger management or stress relief has forgotten to kick in haha

So we got to the mall, and today I wasnt as self conscious about my looks or weight, but a little more relaxed.

I didnt get any IOIS except from a big beaming smile from our waitress at the restaurant we went to after the movie. The movie was awesome!! The meal was relaxed and cool, we were there for around 3-4hours I think and we had such a good time today.

I got home and was supposed to speak to my personal trainer to iron out some confusion around my macros but he has rescheduled now for tomorrow.

Pots girl
Well we have been chatting via whatsapp. Do you all use that, its a messaging app anyway.

She doesnt always carry the conversation, sometimes she does but usually shes laughing at my replies and then ill carry them on.

I noticed only when I challenge her does she then reply and against my cockiness. So if you had read you may recall that I challenged her to be more mentally stable than her in a situation where were in a lift/elevator and it gets stuck.

So ive been going back to that if and when I can. She replies to when i say something like 'oh well you aint gnna win' and shes as like "cos I will".

When I said 'we need to a find a broken lift now', she replies with "hahaha".

So I threw it back to her and said "nervous laughter I see"

and she I think said "haha you think thats nerves"

and i said " sure, I can live with that hahaha"

she "haha"

and she replies like a few times an hour as such rather than immediately and continuously.

So I replied "looks like I won lol"

and she "no you havent lol"


Anyway the point is, is this flirting or not?

any advice guys or thoughts?

My desire to go on any sex/swinging/porn/dating sites has reduced ALOT.

I may go on now once in the whole day and usually ive realised by talking to myself that its due to boredom.

My sex drive seems to have reduced or gone, because im not looking at porn or getting turned on if I do nor am I fapping.

Is this all DMSI? I mean sex drive kinda going down?

40days no fapping so far.


Addendum:
Everytime I post my post up I then remember something else to share.

Snapchat girl today replied to a text I sent her yesterday.
So replied too. I then asked her what shes upto and when shes going home for easter.
She said that shes at the airport right now.
She said shes returning back on 13th (I didnt ask her)
and then she said that when shes back we'll do some TV shows and food.
I obviously said awesome.

Point is I havent really thought about it, nor cared but she seems to have right?


Addendum2:
So at the restaurant I was speaking to my friend (male mate) about potsgirl. I asked him if he noticed anything about her behaviour at the houseparty last week.

To my surprise, he said he had and that she seemed to be a little more chatty than usual, a little more less reserved and more open that before.

I then told him in confidence that she and ex had broken up. I also told him I liked her.

He said that it now made sense that she was more chatty and confident. It was as if a shroud had been lifted from her.

He said it was clear that she and I get along however he also said that she could have been trying to make ex jealous, even though im a mutual friend.

He has said that my personality is amazing and my hair loss isnt even an issue. All a girl wants is a guy that can work and provide however in my case all I need to do is lose my weight and thats it.