DMSI 3.2

[Light]

Easter week and the few days after it was a week and half of some heavy resistance. I had feelings of guilt. Guilt that I am with several women at the same time and that made me feel down. I was feeling down on some days and a bit anxious. I was so tired on other days and tired here is an understatement. I was like hit by a truck. I could not move from bed for several hours. It was not a good time for me.
I am sure I was fighting something in the script big time.
Since yesterday I am beginning to emerge from this cycle.
The good news is I remained solid. I haven’t tried A and won’t do it. I want my ass right against the wall and fight through. I feel this is my Version and I will stick to it no matter what it takes.
I haven’t fapped since Dmsi 2.b emerged and I have a strong sexual energy right now that helps me in my several tinder dates.
A propos dates, I had one with A that I snapped from tinder. She is not hot but she has probably one of the best breasts I have seen. She came with a tshirt showing the ampelness despite unsuitable weather. I remained solid and was not feeling needy. It is a weird feeling I am horney but I don’t act in some needy way. I remain restraint. I was touching her a lot and she felt very easy to touch me. Very unusual for some girls on first date. I didn’t try to kiss her because if we meet next time it is inevitable. The attraction is in the air. It is very subtle but deep. She complimented me thanked me for the nice time and we promised to meet again!
Tomorrow I am meeting N for the first time. We matched on tinder we wrote two weeks now and we arranged to meet tomorrow evening. This is a high quality woman. Sweet fragile and beautiful. We will see how it will go.
R is anorher Girl from tinder.she works in politics and represents some important companies. She is so sweet and sexy and she is very keen to meet me but she is busy moving from her apartment to another. We are planning to meet next week drink some coffee together and go to a Museum in my city. We are also planning to cook together. I am looking forward to that beauty just me and her in some kitchen:-)
In the next two weeks there should be realy between two to four dates... I will start to have time problem to fit everyone in.
I am getting nudges to go pursue my doctorate studies or reach higher jobs and Status that fits who I am becoming. I feel it that if I stay with Dmsi I am going to achieve that, I just have to keep at it and not derail myself.
Something else, my back pain disappeared again in the last two days and it is a sign for me that I am walking better.
I seem to have gained volume in my chest but I don’t go to the gym at all. This sounds weid but there is really something going on in my chest. It looks larger or probably it just looks so.
That is all for now
I will come back to report about my date with N tomorrow.
Final thought I am getting more and more away from media news social media and the like. Only a bit of Facebook but I don’t even care enough to read what is in my inbox
Edit: I have a hunch beautiful N is a manifestation. It is the same pattern I have with two orhers I snipped before. They are sweet fragile , sexy and they come to you effortlessly. If it is the case, N is going to be a really good catch
Edit: in the last sentence I meant R not N?The one into politics