Shannon's Journal Discussion Volume 3

[Have at ye]

Between TID and 4 weeks of side B usage I went through 8 weeks of effortless no fap, within 4 days of Side A usage led to a nocturnal emission and a returned desire for porn and masturbation.

This appears to be resistance or a reversal of some sort, I'm confused as to why B didn't cause this to happen but A has.

Could this be that A is going farther than B in achieving goals or perhaps that my subconscious is adverse to H&C?

The nocturnal emission and return of desire for porn together tells me that some part of H&C scares you deeply, or maybe you know that H&C will result in you achieving the goals, which is creating resistance and reversal. Remember that reversal resistance is always in response to high levels of fear.

Yeah, I've been noticing some bits of reversal resistance pertaining the above, every now and again, mostly while I was using ver. B (especially in the initial two weeks - and several days before it was published, heh). I did notice some of that in my initial week of ver. A, but much lessened in scope - as in, the various urges I know to be resistance-related are easier to control and pass faster than on ver. B.

Interestingly enough, I did have an urge to switch back to ver. B once or twice while running ver. A, hahaha. Did not follow through with that, of course, but it's amusing none-the-less: and seems to be pointing to the fact that, yeah, continuing with ver. A is probably the way to go.