Jakes DMSI 3.2B - *Closed!*

[Jake2015]

Saturday 31st March 2018 - (36-1.5A)
Time: 7.27am on the morning of Sunday 1st April
Listening to loop as I type this update.

So ive finally returned from the house party that fightgirl and our mutual friend invited me too.

They ended up inviting alot more people and had specially called me to come an 1.5hours before others to help out. I unfortunately got there late, 30mins before the party started haha but I helped alot.

The evening was great and fun, started at 8pm and well im now home so was there for around 10-11hours.

I am listening to the loop to not break the ASRB.

So the party yeah was fun.

I had a great time and the girl I liked alot, the Pots Girl was there as was my friend, her ex.

She loved my sense of humour alot and really enjoyed my company and our private jokes.

I guess looking back I could see that I was making all the effort or most of it. She did at one point come and sit by my feet/legs on the floor and chatted to me but I cant read into that.

I cant say for sure that I noticed any IOI or any attempts to be within my sphere/personal space etc.

Eventually all my humour wasnt enough and she eventually left with a female friend of hers that was there too and left a few hours after being there.

The party continued and then more people left. A few around 6 of us were left so we watched some boxing and then some movies.

Fightgirl saw I was sitting on a chair and asked me to come sit with her on the sofa if I wanted. I declined but then later on decided it would be alot more comfier so sat with her.

She got very comfy and put her head on my arm and then snuggled up with me.

I got home and then fight girl messaged me and so we got chatting on the phone about the party and the people for around an hour before she started falling asleep and I left her to it.

I cannot say as yet that beyond fapping anything has changed. I am a little more confident but thats my trust in DMSI helping me but nothing is seen or noticed.

I can also say that yes when potgirl came to the party, I did get more anxious because suddenly I was sweating alot more and realised I needed to dry my face and calm the fuck down. Eventually I did.

I also know I MUST get into shape asap to give me a chance to be liked by girls.

I know 3.2 will work at getting girls to approach us and work for our attention, and I know that im using 3.2 mostly for the clearing, healing and execution or non-stonewalling proof.

So even though girls werent and havent been my focus, its hard not to be a man and think about the girls I like of course.

I havent fapped still, and its now day 36 of no fapping.

Ammendum:
Snapchat girl:
she was there too and she didnt say hi to me directly when she came in which I realised was her nervousness but as the evening progressed she warmed to me even though she called her bf to come later as he had a laptop that we could connect to the tv.

At 1 point she said something about coming to mine to watch a show but I cant recall exactly yet I sensed it and I said yes definitely.

By the evening we got on alot but again its not clear if its more than a friend but im sure it is. Im realising more and more that until I get into shape (i cant do anything about my hair loss) I wont get girls, UNLESS 3.2 kicks in.

We got stuck in the lift, 4 of us and snapchat was 1 of the 4 and the other her bf. So she couldnt really be any more friendly than normal.

We got home and she messaged that she got home ok and I used that as a tool to say we should chill again soon and maybe watch a show together and she said Definitely.

Shes clearly a young niave and super protected girl that is very innocent so I doubt her interest is more than a friend, im fairly sure of it but still a shame.

anyway its now 7.44am as I type this and im waiting for the loop to finish and then ill go to sleep. thanks for reading.