03-31-2018, 04:48 PM
Feels like a new and improved version of myself is sitting just beneath the surface but I keep stuffing it down. It's just this fear of letting go completely and allowing it to happen.
The girl I messaged on tinder messaged me back. I deleted the app off my phone but not the account. Went into the account today and there she was. But instead of talking to her or getting her number I just deleted my account. In the moment I was like yeah screw tinder I'm not chasing this girl. Then I realized that was a dumbass move. Oh well.
My tolerance for the nonsense of daily life is low. I see social media as a giant sinkhole that pulls away my focus from more important stuff. I see people debating, getting into arguments online, and I'm like what the hell is the point? The internet in general. I've just been decluttering my brain, stop hoarding all this useless info and just get down to actually doing stuff in my life. All that info at my fingertips messed up my brain. Always felt I needed to know more before I could take action, which is nonsense.
My whole attitude right now is that we are surrounded by toxic stuff and don't even realize it. It's just been interwoven with everybody's life. Detaching from all of it, that's the challenge. Because like I said, it's interwoven into most people's lives so it's everywhere you step foot. You have to have a strong frame not to get sucked back into the nonsense. I've definitely improved in that regard, but I still don't have the confidence to tell people to piss off. I don't know, I guess I don't feel strong. I have the vision, it's like I just don't have that inner confidence to not be afraid of others. I still feel timid and weak.
The girl I messaged on tinder messaged me back. I deleted the app off my phone but not the account. Went into the account today and there she was. But instead of talking to her or getting her number I just deleted my account. In the moment I was like yeah screw tinder I'm not chasing this girl. Then I realized that was a dumbass move. Oh well.
My tolerance for the nonsense of daily life is low. I see social media as a giant sinkhole that pulls away my focus from more important stuff. I see people debating, getting into arguments online, and I'm like what the hell is the point? The internet in general. I've just been decluttering my brain, stop hoarding all this useless info and just get down to actually doing stuff in my life. All that info at my fingertips messed up my brain. Always felt I needed to know more before I could take action, which is nonsense.
My whole attitude right now is that we are surrounded by toxic stuff and don't even realize it. It's just been interwoven with everybody's life. Detaching from all of it, that's the challenge. Because like I said, it's interwoven into most people's lives so it's everywhere you step foot. You have to have a strong frame not to get sucked back into the nonsense. I've definitely improved in that regard, but I still don't have the confidence to tell people to piss off. I don't know, I guess I don't feel strong. I have the vision, it's like I just don't have that inner confidence to not be afraid of others. I still feel timid and weak.
INFP
