03-31-2018, 02:45 PM
Day 3 DMSI A. Yesterday was not the best day, was feeling really out of sorts and a bit depressed. Feeling better today though. Woke up this morning with an urge to clean and get a few things sorted as well as get my eating back on track (unfortunately everything was closed being easter Sunday here). So I went about and cleaned my place up and got a few things sorted. There is also a bit less of an urge to fap today which is great because that was getting pretty bad over the last few weeks.
I've been having some really vivid dreams the last two nights. Have also got this urge to sort out other areas of my life before even worrying about women, I've got a good job earning a good salary and am currently trying to buy a house (anyone who lives in my city will know how hard that is with the current market), have also got in much better shape than I used to be years back and have started doing a few things I really love. The thing I feel I'm really missing is a good group of friends, when I was younger I used to have a great group of friends that I would catch up with a few times a week they were all pretty ambitious and were going places in life. As the years have drifted by they have all moved overseas and I'm the only one out of that group that is left in my country, now the only real friend I see on a regular basis is an alcoholic. This is one of my primary goals from DMSI, I feel I have most other areas going ok (apart from women) but the good group of friends is the area that's missing. I'm hoping one day in the not to distant future socializing is a fun game will come out with the latest tech that can get past my resistance.
Onto the women side, not a lot happening here at the moment. Have noticed more looks in general from women again no smiles more just long glares from them, it's happened a number of times over the last couple of days. I've got a few other stresses in my life at the moment though including trying to find a place to live until I buy a place, I've got to be out of my place in the next two weeks and finding a place to rent in my city is mighty challenging you will quite often find 30-40 people going to view a room to rent and you really have to sell yourself to get the room or the house, it's gotten to the point where it's easier for me to find a new job than to find a house to live in. I'm hoping once all of that has been sorted I will be able to focus back again on a few other areas.
I've been having some really vivid dreams the last two nights. Have also got this urge to sort out other areas of my life before even worrying about women, I've got a good job earning a good salary and am currently trying to buy a house (anyone who lives in my city will know how hard that is with the current market), have also got in much better shape than I used to be years back and have started doing a few things I really love. The thing I feel I'm really missing is a good group of friends, when I was younger I used to have a great group of friends that I would catch up with a few times a week they were all pretty ambitious and were going places in life. As the years have drifted by they have all moved overseas and I'm the only one out of that group that is left in my country, now the only real friend I see on a regular basis is an alcoholic. This is one of my primary goals from DMSI, I feel I have most other areas going ok (apart from women) but the good group of friends is the area that's missing. I'm hoping one day in the not to distant future socializing is a fun game will come out with the latest tech that can get past my resistance.
Onto the women side, not a lot happening here at the moment. Have noticed more looks in general from women again no smiles more just long glares from them, it's happened a number of times over the last couple of days. I've got a few other stresses in my life at the moment though including trying to find a place to live until I buy a place, I've got to be out of my place in the next two weeks and finding a place to rent in my city is mighty challenging you will quite often find 30-40 people going to view a room to rent and you really have to sell yourself to get the room or the house, it's gotten to the point where it's easier for me to find a new job than to find a house to live in. I'm hoping once all of that has been sorted I will be able to focus back again on a few other areas.
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
