03-28-2018, 01:15 AM
(03-25-2018, 04:12 PM)Benjamin Wrote: Haha it's funny when you're getting alot of sex it's nothing special, but when you don't have it then it seems like it's really important.
Well it's not a lot of sex. Just once a week with the same girl. I just felt a little bored because it's becoming a little too routine now and she's not super hot, at least not hotter than the girls I usually get. I want more.
DMSI 3.2B First Cycle Wrap Up
Days run: 31 days, 2 days break
New notch: 1
Number of times I had sex: 6
Not too bad of a run. I closed one new girl and had sex 3 other times with three FWBs. One of those FWBs ghosted me after that, but whatever. The new girl I closed is very into me and wants very much to please me. We are very compatible sexually, she likes to give and I like to receive. She could be hotter but I'm happy for now.
Plus I hooked up with two transexuals, but I don't count them in.
On the last day (last night), a 29 year old woman super liked me and texted me on Tagged. That's a first. She was very straightforward and told me she likes my body, she's a virgin and she wants sex. That's also a first. She wasn't hot so I was on the fence, but I decided to meet her. If she's ugly I'd reject her. But she wouldn't want to meet, saying she needs to know me well first. I totally lost all interest and just told her if she wants a chance, she needs to send me her full body picture and number. I have no patience for this kind of girls.
Internally, 3.2B has been better than 3.1B. The brain fog is thankfully gone. There have been little improvements in my psyche that's hard to put down in words. Over the last few days I noticed my constant need to prove myself in public. It's a subtle and subconscious tension under my thoughts when I interact with people. I was able to let go and relax more, and when I did that my mind felt more free and I felt more present. It sounds like a basic thing but it didn't come easy. My speech also improved a lot. I've always known that my stutters are psychological and the key to fluency for me is letting go. It's not easy though.
I haven't felt any aura activating though. No overt attraction shown by the females around me. I do drink coffee everyday in the morning. I am slowly reducing my caffeine intake by switching to tea. I've also been using pheromones only when I go to the gym (Bad Wolf + T150), but more for the self effects than external effects. I really perform much better in the gym with them and I do want to bulk up fast. So I don't expect the state shifting to occur in the gym when I'm moned up. One of these days I might go mone free though, some cute new girls just showed up recently.
DMSI 3.2A
Day 1
Played the loop last night. No observable effect yet. I was supposed to see a girl today but she flaked one hour before meeting. Wow. I need a better system.
