Cycle 3 day 1 DMSI B
Had yoga today. Talked with one girl beforehand who had a bf. The guy started to mate guard while she initiated.
In class there was meditation beforehand. 3rd eye guidance which, I tried to avoid a bit after some time in. I felt I was starting to step out of my body. High amount of visions, reality traveling/soul traveling stuff. Intense sexual vibe and thoughts, at times wondering it was to much to bear.
While further in, I noticed how autopilot starting to cause me to flow through the motions and positions. When women bend, my mind became flooded as I could look right through the stretchers and see the lines of pussies. Lol.
When the sexual energy flooded, several women looked my way, starstrucked, stoned into trance.
Afterward flirted a bit with G, while mellowed out.
Then went to get some weight training in. Noticed one girl, pretty cute with some green tints in her haircut following me, observing me, positioning herself so she could watch. Chatted her a bit up afterwards while bantering with "G" and drinking some protein shake. I was teasing, push pulls and the sorts. She responded well to it. Little asian vixen.
The green haired girl looked kinda young but she had this sex appeal. We threw eyes towards eachother
Got other looks aswell from women.
I notice I have some annoyance poppin up with socializing now. I dont want to do anything with people while a minute ago I took this girl aside a bit.
"Sets order with guy"
Guy walks away
Noticed that this girl was hooveting around and took notice
She pops up
Me: the guy was suppoaed to help me, but now you are here, so I figure you can help me *lotsa subcommunication*
She * beames huge smile and autopilot takes over from there*
I only can remember her smile now, shes cute tho.
She fumbled over her words, messed up receit and all of that.
Tssk tssk wink wink.
Anyway, there was thus slight disrespectfull feeling goin on. Like, being mocked on a subtle level by guys. I have the last few days an *dont like male friends* thing going on, like riding solo, fucking women and such. Even tho I had many of the people with me in this venue. The slight "funny remarks" felt insulting, as one of those guys up there, a server, did mess up last order couple days ago and he wasnt serious at all. Like supplicating yet taking the piss.
Ah well.
This morning I alsi had fleeing thoughts of wanting to look at porn for a bit. Dont care now.
Slight headache at the moment. Key is to cinnect with agression more in my case. Im also having experiences of minding my damn business and yet people opening me.
My drive is growing aswell.
Oh and the guy has now put an extra order with mine. I really dont get it anymore mayne
Had yoga today. Talked with one girl beforehand who had a bf. The guy started to mate guard while she initiated.
In class there was meditation beforehand. 3rd eye guidance which, I tried to avoid a bit after some time in. I felt I was starting to step out of my body. High amount of visions, reality traveling/soul traveling stuff. Intense sexual vibe and thoughts, at times wondering it was to much to bear.
While further in, I noticed how autopilot starting to cause me to flow through the motions and positions. When women bend, my mind became flooded as I could look right through the stretchers and see the lines of pussies. Lol.
When the sexual energy flooded, several women looked my way, starstrucked, stoned into trance.
Afterward flirted a bit with G, while mellowed out.
Then went to get some weight training in. Noticed one girl, pretty cute with some green tints in her haircut following me, observing me, positioning herself so she could watch. Chatted her a bit up afterwards while bantering with "G" and drinking some protein shake. I was teasing, push pulls and the sorts. She responded well to it. Little asian vixen.
The green haired girl looked kinda young but she had this sex appeal. We threw eyes towards eachother
Got other looks aswell from women.
I notice I have some annoyance poppin up with socializing now. I dont want to do anything with people while a minute ago I took this girl aside a bit.
"Sets order with guy"
Guy walks away
Noticed that this girl was hooveting around and took notice
She pops up
Me: the guy was suppoaed to help me, but now you are here, so I figure you can help me *lotsa subcommunication*
She * beames huge smile and autopilot takes over from there*
I only can remember her smile now, shes cute tho.
She fumbled over her words, messed up receit and all of that.
Tssk tssk wink wink.
Anyway, there was thus slight disrespectfull feeling goin on. Like, being mocked on a subtle level by guys. I have the last few days an *dont like male friends* thing going on, like riding solo, fucking women and such. Even tho I had many of the people with me in this venue. The slight "funny remarks" felt insulting, as one of those guys up there, a server, did mess up last order couple days ago and he wasnt serious at all. Like supplicating yet taking the piss.
Ah well.
This morning I alsi had fleeing thoughts of wanting to look at porn for a bit. Dont care now.
Slight headache at the moment. Key is to cinnect with agression more in my case. Im also having experiences of minding my damn business and yet people opening me.
My drive is growing aswell.
Oh and the guy has now put an extra order with mine. I really dont get it anymore mayne
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
