(03-17-2018, 08:01 PM)Zane Wrote: Somehow DMSI 3.2 is working on my Depression and Anxiety. I had MDD for past 7 years and only got worse and the only sub that is working from day one is DMSI 3.2.
I suggest u get DMSI 3.2 and man up. Also, u will still be u. U will just know how to deal with shit better. So don't worry.
Nice! What kind of depressive feelings is it working on, so I can put it into perspective?
Yeah thanks for the advise, but trying to man up was actually what took me into this shithole, not listening to myself. So right now I am getting back to myself and my sense of what I should and shouldn't do, and I am working on getting more into that. I am not sure about what subliminal I want to use, but I have a lot of repressed emotions that I need to bring to the surface. We'll see. Right now i am making good progress with my daily routine.
Yesterday was a pretty good day, I was sitting in the sun with a cup of tea and I was feeling good. Just good. That was a long damn time ago I could feel that way, even just for 15 minutes. I also went to a yoga workout in the evening and as we were working on stability, I felt huge amount of anger coming up. It made me realize more about my blockage and stored energy in my root region (legs and bottom pelvis) so I have incorporated some poses directed towards that in my daily exercise. I guess this is what keeping me from feeling stable in my everyday life.
I have also had some advancements of opening up my solar plexus region, as I have been feeling a lot of guilt for a long time, and this is the contradiction to feeling empowered. I have been feeling "small", low confididence, and trying to avoid attention when being in groups of people somwhat. Not feeling in charge of my life, but rather as a victim. But that is changing, I am getting more in the drivers seat, and having more energy. I am maybe not so afraid of doing "wrong" as I have been, more inclined towards taking risks, even if it is just a small thing. I am not so upset when I don't get what I want, but can keep my emotions more under control.
I am also more aware of how people act around me and able to dodge their way of trying to manipulate their surroundings. My mom for example, have a habit of complaining a lot about things, being a victim and wanting people to feel sorry for her. If they don't, she guilt-trips them, as I have been done. I somewhat care more about other people, and in this case it's just detrimental.
So overall I am feeling better, more positive torwards things, more in control of myself, but still very tired in my body, have some problems with having a healthy relationship with my mom (I still don't like interacting with her as I can't fully shield against her toxic energy). I want to be more proactive in my life, feel more energized, feel more safe and grounded, more stable, more loving, more myself (so universe, you hear that??!)
Have a nice weekend!
