03-19-2018, 10:25 PM
Stage 5, Day 1
Book of the month: Double your dating by David DeAngelo.
Was supposed to go out with 2 friends earlier in the day but didn’t hear from them. Instead of calling and trying to track them down like I would’ve in the past, I said screw it and used my day off to do what made me happy without worrying about why I got no calls. They did eventually call me way later at night though wanting to chill. I didn’t ask for an explanation and honestly didn’t even care. Later my best friend explained to me how he was dealing with his sick grandmother and showed me pics of her in the hospital, I’ve known his grandma for about 15 years so now I understand that us hanging out probably wasn’t on his mind at the time. My other friend spent all day handling paperwork related to the state of Florida and even has to go to work tomorrow which is why he couldn’t use the daytime to chill as he’s flying back to New York early in the morning.
Understandable, I still didn’t need an explanation though. Speaking of which, the female coworker I went out with the other night never called me up to go out again yesterday like she said she would, but it’s cool. I notice more than ever that I’m good whether I’m around people or I’m in solitude (must be the extroversion training along with my natural introversion). I simply have begun to make backup plans in case things fall through without even caring about the reason why people may make plans to chill with me and then flake. I don’t feel needy at all. The old me would’ve found this disrespectful but these days I’m truly enjoying my own company so much that I’m unbothered by any flakiness, as long as someone doesn’t cancel once I’m already at the place we’re supposed to meet at, which hasn’t happened.
I don’t feel needy enough to chase anyone at all. I’m a blast to be around, especially since starting am6. If someone cancels or flakes, their loss. I get to have my awesome self all to me haha. Anyway, went out to eat with both friends and there were some women in the restaurant looking pretty good. This one in particular, which happened to be the one I liked most, was with her boyfriend. I caught her staring at me while I ate. I glanced over to the right a bit, and her man was staring at me too. I just thought that maybe they mistook me for someone they knew. Nope, less than a minute later I looked back over at their table and they were arguing. Guess he didn’t like the fact she had wandering eyes. Oops lol. Funny thing is around 10 minutes later I caught her staring at me again.
In other news, my wife went to the courthouse and told me she couldn’t go through with it. Apparently couldn’t bring herself to file the divorce papers and told me that if that’s what I really want then I have to do it myself. She then started talking about us having another baby and asked me if I wanted us to live together again. I’m starting to become convinced that I married a psycho. I basically stood my ground and stated that a divorce is what I want. There was a little more to the conversation which included her flirting with me but I feel that’s mostly because it’s been a few weeks since she’s had sex as far as I know.
Supposedly stage 5 produces a sort of James Bond like effect. We’ll see, I can say that while running stage 5, I definitely feel more at peace as opposed to when I ran other stages.
Book of the month: Double your dating by David DeAngelo.
Was supposed to go out with 2 friends earlier in the day but didn’t hear from them. Instead of calling and trying to track them down like I would’ve in the past, I said screw it and used my day off to do what made me happy without worrying about why I got no calls. They did eventually call me way later at night though wanting to chill. I didn’t ask for an explanation and honestly didn’t even care. Later my best friend explained to me how he was dealing with his sick grandmother and showed me pics of her in the hospital, I’ve known his grandma for about 15 years so now I understand that us hanging out probably wasn’t on his mind at the time. My other friend spent all day handling paperwork related to the state of Florida and even has to go to work tomorrow which is why he couldn’t use the daytime to chill as he’s flying back to New York early in the morning.
Understandable, I still didn’t need an explanation though. Speaking of which, the female coworker I went out with the other night never called me up to go out again yesterday like she said she would, but it’s cool. I notice more than ever that I’m good whether I’m around people or I’m in solitude (must be the extroversion training along with my natural introversion). I simply have begun to make backup plans in case things fall through without even caring about the reason why people may make plans to chill with me and then flake. I don’t feel needy at all. The old me would’ve found this disrespectful but these days I’m truly enjoying my own company so much that I’m unbothered by any flakiness, as long as someone doesn’t cancel once I’m already at the place we’re supposed to meet at, which hasn’t happened.
I don’t feel needy enough to chase anyone at all. I’m a blast to be around, especially since starting am6. If someone cancels or flakes, their loss. I get to have my awesome self all to me haha. Anyway, went out to eat with both friends and there were some women in the restaurant looking pretty good. This one in particular, which happened to be the one I liked most, was with her boyfriend. I caught her staring at me while I ate. I glanced over to the right a bit, and her man was staring at me too. I just thought that maybe they mistook me for someone they knew. Nope, less than a minute later I looked back over at their table and they were arguing. Guess he didn’t like the fact she had wandering eyes. Oops lol. Funny thing is around 10 minutes later I caught her staring at me again.
In other news, my wife went to the courthouse and told me she couldn’t go through with it. Apparently couldn’t bring herself to file the divorce papers and told me that if that’s what I really want then I have to do it myself. She then started talking about us having another baby and asked me if I wanted us to live together again. I’m starting to become convinced that I married a psycho. I basically stood my ground and stated that a divorce is what I want. There was a little more to the conversation which included her flirting with me but I feel that’s mostly because it’s been a few weeks since she’s had sex as far as I know.
Supposedly stage 5 produces a sort of James Bond like effect. We’ll see, I can say that while running stage 5, I definitely feel more at peace as opposed to when I ran other stages.
