03-18-2018, 01:41 PM
The aggressive attitude shimmers forth till the point the last time I met up with friends it was noticable. Im even restless at this point. Its like all the bs that was tolerated is now surfacing and dealt with. Its 0 bs policy and tolerance akin to not shooting holes in the ship, but blowing the whole thing up in a nuclear sea of fire.
When some friends came over, my attitude went more and more moody. They even asked if it was something they did that caused it. The moodiness and agression also translates in fearless confrontational attitude. Like, with "D", I called him out without any remorse. My hints were clear.
Its not a constant attitude off "fuck the world, dont you dare to walk in my way lest you want to get fucked", but theyre are episodes with pauses in between. Im also having increase of doubt which adds to the mess.
This might come from a place of knowing that I have experience in the field of the mind, the esoteric, occult, law of attraction and affirmations and such. I guess im still having validation seeking behaviour. Its pretty radical. The need to be right. Yeah...why. there is a whole story going on behind it tbh.
Part also comes with the territory, the whole ignorance of these people that are gping to tell how shit works and what not while being totally unaware that beliefs shape their reality, thus dragging other people into that shit. So far for my 1l00% responsibility taking. In a wsmay im invested in that shit and its now painfully coming to the surface.
Yes, there is a strong black and white thinking without compromis right now. Be with me, add value and be usefull asset, or get out of my way and stfu.
Its not all doom and gloom. When im out in public, which is really my thing, im very chill. I notice that my desire to approach is low. At times, this makes me feel weird. Like, the obvious that has been stated by Shannon, about "man must hunt" programming. Im very confident in public yet still want to approach to some degree. Being freespirited so to say. Also, my walk is swagger and money. Im looking to improve my style even further. My walk in really noticable, being the king and prize. Im even growing somewhat interested in exclusive like clothing which I thought to be pretty ugly before.
Right now im wanting to sleep. I want to get over with the whole shitstorm goin on currently like many things are magnified through my attention.
DMSI delivers tho, no matter what. As things resolve and click into place, my laycounts about to skyrocket. There aint downsides to this whole DMSI run.
When some friends came over, my attitude went more and more moody. They even asked if it was something they did that caused it. The moodiness and agression also translates in fearless confrontational attitude. Like, with "D", I called him out without any remorse. My hints were clear.
Its not a constant attitude off "fuck the world, dont you dare to walk in my way lest you want to get fucked", but theyre are episodes with pauses in between. Im also having increase of doubt which adds to the mess.
This might come from a place of knowing that I have experience in the field of the mind, the esoteric, occult, law of attraction and affirmations and such. I guess im still having validation seeking behaviour. Its pretty radical. The need to be right. Yeah...why. there is a whole story going on behind it tbh.
Part also comes with the territory, the whole ignorance of these people that are gping to tell how shit works and what not while being totally unaware that beliefs shape their reality, thus dragging other people into that shit. So far for my 1l00% responsibility taking. In a wsmay im invested in that shit and its now painfully coming to the surface.
Yes, there is a strong black and white thinking without compromis right now. Be with me, add value and be usefull asset, or get out of my way and stfu.
Its not all doom and gloom. When im out in public, which is really my thing, im very chill. I notice that my desire to approach is low. At times, this makes me feel weird. Like, the obvious that has been stated by Shannon, about "man must hunt" programming. Im very confident in public yet still want to approach to some degree. Being freespirited so to say. Also, my walk is swagger and money. Im looking to improve my style even further. My walk in really noticable, being the king and prize. Im even growing somewhat interested in exclusive like clothing which I thought to be pretty ugly before.
Right now im wanting to sleep. I want to get over with the whole shitstorm goin on currently like many things are magnified through my attention.
DMSI delivers tho, no matter what. As things resolve and click into place, my laycounts about to skyrocket. There aint downsides to this whole DMSI run.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
