DMSI 3.2 it's official

[mat422]

Mind games out the wazoo lately. I thought for the longest time I was letting go and allowing the subconscious to really work, but it turns out I was just resisting by detaching from the influence of it. See DMSI is really really simple, one of the ways I self sabotage is by overthinking. Stuff like "am I doing this right, does this feel right?, am I being authentic. am I trying to hard, am I faking?" I'm putting a conscious effort into NOT ruminating over this stuff anymore. These are all just doubts and doubts come from fear. But it feels very important to address or think about, but it's not. That's the trap. Enough is enough, no more distractions from executing.

I've found myself in the past week procrastinating again. My mind convincing me I'm just tired and I need rest and to decompress. Then after I watch a show or two I'll work on music. Guess what though? I never get around to the music. Whether it's reddit, this forum, youtube, tv, movies, whatever, I'm becoming more aware of the fact when I'm faced with something uncomfortable I immediately run to these things to avoid doing what I need to do.

I'm already spending too much time on this post. I think my biggest issue is basically feeling like something is "wrong" when I'm pushing my comfort zone. So my mind wants to correct it and avoid moving beyond those limits I've set for myself. So it throws up a whole bunch of excuses or explanation for why I shouldn't continue to move in the direction of progress.