03-16-2018, 09:02 AM
Nothing seriously new to report.i was sharp-tempered and angry yesterday.very angry at a manipulative gester from one of the secretaries.i was so mad but then I calmed down.
I run my loop three hours ago and I feel i am radiating the aura.i know exactly where it comes from,right on the upper part of my cheek bones. It is cold but I feel very warm in my face.
I am bit horny but it doesn’t even occur to me to fap or watch porn.it is like i have absolutely no need to do that,no pleasure in that really.
The girl I snipped booked in a Hotel in my city and we are meeting tomorrow afternoon and it is time to see what it looks like in bed.she sent me nudes yesterday and told me literally she is going to be my slave!!!!
We will see how it goes tomorrow. Other that I am having less guilt and anxiety. These are my two big enemies for full execution. In this run,i know when I am resisting and when I am executing fully or partially. The sub has become transparent to me.i know it,it knows me.
I noticed also I am typing better. Normally I am terrible at that.
I get nodges to be productive,so I am learning Spanish and Russian for my work and it is fun.
I run my loop three hours ago and I feel i am radiating the aura.i know exactly where it comes from,right on the upper part of my cheek bones. It is cold but I feel very warm in my face.
I am bit horny but it doesn’t even occur to me to fap or watch porn.it is like i have absolutely no need to do that,no pleasure in that really.
The girl I snipped booked in a Hotel in my city and we are meeting tomorrow afternoon and it is time to see what it looks like in bed.she sent me nudes yesterday and told me literally she is going to be my slave!!!!
We will see how it goes tomorrow. Other that I am having less guilt and anxiety. These are my two big enemies for full execution. In this run,i know when I am resisting and when I am executing fully or partially. The sub has become transparent to me.i know it,it knows me.
I noticed also I am typing better. Normally I am terrible at that.
I get nodges to be productive,so I am learning Spanish and Russian for my work and it is fun.
Generally, when you start using a subliminal that seriously conflicts with something you have in your subconscious programming, the subconscious will attempt to get you to change to something else in order to escape having to change it's programming
