03-14-2018, 06:55 PM
Ending day 28 I was reflecting and just noticed that literally every night for the past 5 nights the same thought occurs to me right before I begin playing am6. I have a thought that tells me that I’m sick of playing this sub. It fades a few seconds after I begin playing it but wow. This feels more like it may be impatience as opposed to resistance because I’ve cut my listening down to 9 hours and 20 minutes daily, all with back to back loops instead of spreading it out like I have been with other stages.
Today I also began to notice that I’m tired of joking around a bit so I may be purposely cutting back on jokes. I love my new sense of humor or rather I love how the sense of humor I’ve always had has been augmented, but I’m literally beginning to tire of smiling and joking as much as I have been. Forgot to mention that I’m also beginning to like myself more when I look in the mirror.
Part of me is starting to feel like I should rev the hours back up to 12 per day, but another part of me enjoys the spare mental energy I feel with just 8-9 hours of exposure. Ultimately though I feel as if I’ll go back to 12 because I’m attempting to get everything possible out of this run due to wanting to begin BASE in 2019. After Base I’ll either do a refresher for AM6 or run the whole thing over again. Still have plenty options on the table.
Today I also began to notice that I’m tired of joking around a bit so I may be purposely cutting back on jokes. I love my new sense of humor or rather I love how the sense of humor I’ve always had has been augmented, but I’m literally beginning to tire of smiling and joking as much as I have been. Forgot to mention that I’m also beginning to like myself more when I look in the mirror.
Part of me is starting to feel like I should rev the hours back up to 12 per day, but another part of me enjoys the spare mental energy I feel with just 8-9 hours of exposure. Ultimately though I feel as if I’ll go back to 12 because I’m attempting to get everything possible out of this run due to wanting to begin BASE in 2019. After Base I’ll either do a refresher for AM6 or run the whole thing over again. Still have plenty options on the table.
