03-14-2018, 06:06 AM
(03-14-2018, 02:38 AM)mat422 Wrote: Had this moment last night listening to the sub where it felt like I was in alignment with my conscious and subconscious. What I've realized is I have a tendency to wait too much for my subconscious to do everything. Getting my conscious mind involved, though uncomfortable, speeds things up a lot. I get these short windows where I feel that new reality, but I also feel the pull to run. It's definitely a focus I have to build to stay on track and not slip into those passive states. Feels like I get slammed by a lot of what if fears that I want to take the time to carefully plan for and be cautious about. But that's the pattern in my life, thinking, preparing, being overly cautious, there's never been enough follow through so I wait and wait. Well the one thing I can do is tell myself to consciously get my mind on board with the goals of dmsi and to stop waiting. I recognize it all feels incredibly foreign and wrong to me because it's nothing like how my life has been. But that's no excuse to resist the changes and I have to work harder to be consistent.
I still speak to the scared part of my mind with compassion, but I also make sure I'm stern enough so I don't get dragged into that defeated, hopeless, and afraid attitude. There's definitely a balance here that I'm learning. Not bullying the subconscious but also not being too passive with it and letting it have it's way.
I think this is where the good old CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) comes in handy. You are not going to be able to take 100% control of your conscious thoughts but what you can do is train yourself to become more aware of your thoughts throughout the day to the point that whenever you think something that is even slightly self destructive and limiting that a little light bulb will go off in your head, then you can use positive self talk.
Even if you don't amend it with a positive perspective just being AWARE of it is a huge thing. You will find that when you are consciously aware of something that it tends to lose its power over you.
Sometimes I find it helps just to take a back seat and allow whatever thoughts to occur no matter what they are, and let them pass without judgement. There is always a space within you which witnesses all experience but is not enmeshed in it. Sink back into this place and let the river flow unhindered. You may find that the negative thoughts will diminish and lose their power over you
