DMSI 3.2 - B and A

[Shawn]

So it looks like the state wasn't only caused because of hybrid because yesterday I already got really tired after just two days of listening and after listened to my loop yesterday I went into a really bad state. I got a strange pressure in my head, almost felt like passing out, after that experienced panic, strange sensations in my arms (like there is no more blood circulation) and very cold feelings in my body. I was afraid to death. Later after the first symptoms went away I started getting slight headaches. It was really scary. I even thought about waiting for A before continuing but I have the strange feeling that at least part of the body symptoms were detoxification symptoms. If this is the case it would at least mean that I am executing more than before. Anyway, there is also good internal stuff (most of aura faded after that experience).

For example my interest in women and my experience of sexual related feeling seems more mature than before and not so binary. Before it was often that I went from 0 to 100 from one to the next moment and now it is somehow smoother even if it can also happen fast. Hard to describe, but I think this might have caused at least partially the creepiness I was talking about. And when I am around people I noticed that it feels more comfortable and natural having people around me. I seem also notice to recover better from drawbacks and the PTPA programming shows its influence.