03-12-2018, 05:40 PM
Still going strong. But after that last post I realize I was too hard on myself. It's all about dedication to growth and facing challenges without having it devolve into shaming and guilt trips. I'm reading a book on self compassion and getting a lot more insight into my faulty mindset. This persistent need to be perfect and beyond the flaws humans experience is what causes my suffering. Instead of embracing what it means to be human, I condemn myself for every little flaw.
Lately I'm feeling that need to impress women fade away. I am who I am and they can take me or leave me. There's less anxiety of worrying how I'm perceived because I understand they can't give me the validation I seek, only I can. And this isn't a wannabe idgaf mentality like trying to be cool or whatever, I just genuinely feel more peaceful and feel like I don't need much from others.
Been noticing very heavy sensations in my chest. Sort of feels like I'm experiencing a deep sadness. Maybe it's always been there and I've ignored it. Instead of stuffing it down I'm now making sure I take the time to show myself compassion for whatever hardships or emotional pain I'm feeling. Not dwelling on it, but just enough attention so a part of me knows it's ok and we'll get through this.
Lately I'm feeling that need to impress women fade away. I am who I am and they can take me or leave me. There's less anxiety of worrying how I'm perceived because I understand they can't give me the validation I seek, only I can. And this isn't a wannabe idgaf mentality like trying to be cool or whatever, I just genuinely feel more peaceful and feel like I don't need much from others.
Been noticing very heavy sensations in my chest. Sort of feels like I'm experiencing a deep sadness. Maybe it's always been there and I've ignored it. Instead of stuffing it down I'm now making sure I take the time to show myself compassion for whatever hardships or emotional pain I'm feeling. Not dwelling on it, but just enough attention so a part of me knows it's ok and we'll get through this.
INFP
