03-10-2018, 06:37 PM
On day three, 10am on sunday morning. Listened to hybrid ocean surf loop yesterday after the gym at about 4pm which is a little earlier than I will be listening to it from now on because I work morning and evening on saturday but last night was my last night of my evening job because I have resigned it so it won't be a problem anymore. I plan to listen at 6pm every evening now.
Went the the mall yesterday to get a new t-shirt and buy some groceries, mall was packed with people and I felt slightly uncomfortable because I haven't lately been exposing myself to these situations. Didn't get any looks from anyone at all, I was gazing around and just observing people (in a non creepy way) to see if anyone was looking at me but there was no signs of it. It may be because I was wearing all black which possibly had something to do with it. I need some more interesting clothes - all I wear at the moment are black jeans and plain blue and black t-shirts or a grey and black long sleeve t-shirt.
It may be that I wasn't getting any looks because some part of me felt a bit needy for it. I can be an impatient person and I look for results too quickly. I haven't felt any of this 'aura' or energy yet that other people are describing but ive only listened to two loops so far so. I did notice that after the gym yesterday when I laid down and put on the track with my headphones on that I was almost nodding off to sleep during the first 30 minutes of the track but then during the second half I started feeling somewhat energised.
I need to start getting out more, that has been one of my biggest issues. Not putting myself in enough social situations. Now that I have resigned my evening job I am hoping I will have more opportunities for it.
Went the the mall yesterday to get a new t-shirt and buy some groceries, mall was packed with people and I felt slightly uncomfortable because I haven't lately been exposing myself to these situations. Didn't get any looks from anyone at all, I was gazing around and just observing people (in a non creepy way) to see if anyone was looking at me but there was no signs of it. It may be because I was wearing all black which possibly had something to do with it. I need some more interesting clothes - all I wear at the moment are black jeans and plain blue and black t-shirts or a grey and black long sleeve t-shirt.
It may be that I wasn't getting any looks because some part of me felt a bit needy for it. I can be an impatient person and I look for results too quickly. I haven't felt any of this 'aura' or energy yet that other people are describing but ive only listened to two loops so far so. I did notice that after the gym yesterday when I laid down and put on the track with my headphones on that I was almost nodding off to sleep during the first 30 minutes of the track but then during the second half I started feeling somewhat energised.
I need to start getting out more, that has been one of my biggest issues. Not putting myself in enough social situations. Now that I have resigned my evening job I am hoping I will have more opportunities for it.
