so I'l be straight up and tell u guys I went and banged that escort from long time ago (the one born on the exact same day as me who I almost went out with on date)..
Anyways, I got her number now for real and were going to chill.
A few thing I noticed, I'm MUCH better at holding Tension, I'm more of an asshole (i don't think that is because of DMSI though I think its because of my last break up and becoming more bitter and mysogonistic)
She told me i'm more mean then before and she also called me an asshole.
The sex was good and she seemed more into then before. She also let me do things that I wasn't allowed to do before like play with her pussy with my fingers.
I also notice I don't have any strong feelings on a scale of 1-10 a 1 or 2 towards the situation, last time I almost went out with her and almost chilled had allot stronger feelings towards her.
She gave me her instagram and told me to ask for her number there so I sent her my number and asked for hers and she gave me her number with a
emoji.
She also said to me in person, "What do you get more confidence the bigger your muscles get?"
because im much bigger then when i banged her last and she also noticed my confidence go up.
Anyways, I told her this is the last time i'm banging escorts and I came to see her.
Which is partially true, another reason why I went and banged her is because i'm going to jail tonight at 7pm for 48 hours like every weekend and TBH its like a drug. I'm a sex addict and sex is my escape from reality and helps me not thiknk about jail.) thats my excuses at least.
I'm happy I banged her though, I did want to see her again. I told her i'm going to bang her for free and were going to chill hence why i got her number.
also that tip u guys gave me about embracing my masculiniity while not losing my feminity has helped allot.
I noticed I had issues expressing myself , like scared to be feminine because I am so extreme and was always on the extreme end of masculinity last 4 years (and on the extreme end of femininity for the rest of my life, although I wasn't gay or seem gay, i had MUCH more feminine energy in the past.)
Now that i'm allowing my feminity to shine through a bit its making me more attractive overall. I know what u guys mean now.
Anyways, I got her number now for real and were going to chill.
A few thing I noticed, I'm MUCH better at holding Tension, I'm more of an asshole (i don't think that is because of DMSI though I think its because of my last break up and becoming more bitter and mysogonistic)
She told me i'm more mean then before and she also called me an asshole.
The sex was good and she seemed more into then before. She also let me do things that I wasn't allowed to do before like play with her pussy with my fingers.
I also notice I don't have any strong feelings on a scale of 1-10 a 1 or 2 towards the situation, last time I almost went out with her and almost chilled had allot stronger feelings towards her.
She gave me her instagram and told me to ask for her number there so I sent her my number and asked for hers and she gave me her number with a
emoji.She also said to me in person, "What do you get more confidence the bigger your muscles get?"
because im much bigger then when i banged her last and she also noticed my confidence go up.
Anyways, I told her this is the last time i'm banging escorts and I came to see her.
Which is partially true, another reason why I went and banged her is because i'm going to jail tonight at 7pm for 48 hours like every weekend and TBH its like a drug. I'm a sex addict and sex is my escape from reality and helps me not thiknk about jail.) thats my excuses at least.
I'm happy I banged her though, I did want to see her again. I told her i'm going to bang her for free and were going to chill hence why i got her number.
also that tip u guys gave me about embracing my masculiniity while not losing my feminity has helped allot.
I noticed I had issues expressing myself , like scared to be feminine because I am so extreme and was always on the extreme end of masculinity last 4 years (and on the extreme end of femininity for the rest of my life, although I wasn't gay or seem gay, i had MUCH more feminine energy in the past.)
Now that i'm allowing my feminity to shine through a bit its making me more attractive overall. I know what u guys mean now.
