(03-07-2018, 11:01 PM)Determined Wrote: I also want to add this in here for you Raykon
Sometimes what seems like to right answer is actually what perpetuates the paradigm. For instance, I've noticed that your response to either a rejection or a bad turn of events with a woman is to "hit the gym and get bigger" i.e more aggression.
Whilst being caveman is incredibly attractive to a woman, it's only attractive to one part of her brain - the reptilian brain. You still have to appeal to the mammalian brain (complex emotions including comfort) and the human brain (prefrontal cortex related to executive function).
In a similar vein, the PUA paradigm and the "nice guy" paradigm also loop back in on themselves and perpetuate the problem. PUA's resolve to learn more game and to game more women and nice guys resolve to be even nicer when they don't get what they want.
In relation to your dream, your action of avoiding death is exactly what is perpetuating your current situation. Everything else that followed was a result of that choice. Sometimes we're terrified of changing who we are because we're so accustomed to the security of who we've been.
I'd presume DMSI is calling upon you to transform yourself hence the subconscious communication through dreams. I'd take that as a solid sign of progress.
I agree with you about how i'm aggressive, The gym helps me get mind off stuff when I'm depressed, but also even though I appear very masculine to women, due to my body language, high test low estrogen and because I prefer to be masculine now.
I still have that femininity within me, it comes out when I have stronger feelings for woman, it's impossible for me to hide it completely. So I still have the ability to create strong comfort and connection in that way.
I definitely imagine I spike up the reptillian part of the brain the most right off the bat because of my strong animal magnetism, looks, and extremely high test. But I don't lose that emotional / feminine side of me completely ever.
How would you reccomend I be more balanced? and is balanced even neccessary? I'm into extremely feminine woman, so i wanted to be extremely masculine.