Day 13 - Update 1 - Thursday 8th March 2018
Time: 3.59pm
Just replied to posts above and going to go make some tea, and then will return to complete this update...so if youre reading this now, then ill be back super soon. thanks
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Time: 4.37pm
So nothing noticed again today until I got home and went to the escorts page, 1 in particular that was attractive and well it got me horny again but then I came here typed and went to make my tea.
Women:
Nothing new to report here, so no IOIs or anything.
Fap:
No fapping still, so 13days of no fap
Ikea Girl:
So theres this girl at uni from Sweden and im gnna call her Ikea Girl here so I know who I am referring to.
She knows I like her cos ive asked her for coffee etc, nothing serious just tried to make it seem all nonchalant and shes politely brushed it off with some excuse or another.
I saw her yesterday and forgot to mention it. Anyway I was sat with 3 other guys in the cafeteria at uni and I saw her and called out to her and she smiled seeing me then went back in to grab her coffee or whatever. 1 of my friends in that group was swedish and asked how I know her so I said she was in 1 of my classes last semester (shes in year 5 of a course at uni).
Anyway so she came back and we spoke, she was stood I was sat and then I introduced her to the guys at the table cos it seemed polite as well as odd not to since im ignoring all them to talk to her and then I threw in we'll have coffee when youre free and she said maybe, then she went back to talking to 1 of the guys and I in my witty way said ...
"woaw woaw did you say wait did you say MAYBE?" lol
and she said "god willing" which is her way of politely brushing me off and before you all say no no she didnt, I know the context and she did brush me off.
I asked my swedish guy friend how he knew her and he divulged that he had seen her with her bf, but whether she has one now he doesnt know.
Personally if she has a bf or not I dont care, the purpose of DMSI to work in my understanding is to make her find me sexually irresistible and so far no body does haha
Anyway thats that and im mentioning her here incase in the future I can look back and show any developments.
Im going back to uni for 1 lecture at 6pm, and then at 7.30pm going for a meal with a bunch of guy friends.
personally im doing it to meet the guys so that they dont harass me that I dont meet them or im too busy, and 2ndly because this past weekend was the most depressing and tense for me as you all know due to DMSI or myself I dont know so im going out to de-stress.
When I return I will listen to my loop for today.
oh there was 1 other thing to report I just remember:
I woke up super super tired. I had this soreness above my right eye all day. its now gone and no idea what it was but all I can assume is that it was either cos I lacked sleep from yesterday 8am start (most likely) or it has something to do with DMSI.
When I listen to the hybrid with headphones, I know ill be bored sitting doing nothing for the 1loop so I usually use that time to either read or come online and surf as well as update posts here. I dont pay any attention at all to the loop however yesterday at random moments I would actually listen to the trickling stream and focus on its sound but thats not usual for me hence why im wondering if it was DMSI making me tired though in all honesty going to uni at 8am after a few hours sleep and then not recooperating that sleep must have been a part of it.
In life on the outside im confident and charismatic and charming and witty etc Therefore its hard for me to know if anything else in DMSI is working such as the focus fire subs as in Self esteem etc. Its hard because maybe im just one of those guys that goes outside and fakes it till he makes it or not im unsure.
Im so used to being me that I dont usually know when im stressed or fearful and this is because from age 11-18 every single day at school I went in with anxiety and acted all calm and confident. I hated that school, had no friends, nobody liked me blah blah blah and i dont care its my past but im mentioning all this because if im not fapping due to DMSI and seems to be the case then im not stonewalling and if im not stonewalling then im super eager to know what on earth is DMSI doing cos I just cant tell people!!! lol
Time: 3.59pm
Just replied to posts above and going to go make some tea, and then will return to complete this update...so if youre reading this now, then ill be back super soon. thanks
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Time: 4.37pm
So nothing noticed again today until I got home and went to the escorts page, 1 in particular that was attractive and well it got me horny again but then I came here typed and went to make my tea.
Women:
Nothing new to report here, so no IOIs or anything.
Fap:
No fapping still, so 13days of no fap
Ikea Girl:
So theres this girl at uni from Sweden and im gnna call her Ikea Girl here so I know who I am referring to.
She knows I like her cos ive asked her for coffee etc, nothing serious just tried to make it seem all nonchalant and shes politely brushed it off with some excuse or another.
I saw her yesterday and forgot to mention it. Anyway I was sat with 3 other guys in the cafeteria at uni and I saw her and called out to her and she smiled seeing me then went back in to grab her coffee or whatever. 1 of my friends in that group was swedish and asked how I know her so I said she was in 1 of my classes last semester (shes in year 5 of a course at uni).
Anyway so she came back and we spoke, she was stood I was sat and then I introduced her to the guys at the table cos it seemed polite as well as odd not to since im ignoring all them to talk to her and then I threw in we'll have coffee when youre free and she said maybe, then she went back to talking to 1 of the guys and I in my witty way said ...
"woaw woaw did you say wait did you say MAYBE?" lol
and she said "god willing" which is her way of politely brushing me off and before you all say no no she didnt, I know the context and she did brush me off.
I asked my swedish guy friend how he knew her and he divulged that he had seen her with her bf, but whether she has one now he doesnt know.
Personally if she has a bf or not I dont care, the purpose of DMSI to work in my understanding is to make her find me sexually irresistible and so far no body does haha
Anyway thats that and im mentioning her here incase in the future I can look back and show any developments.
Im going back to uni for 1 lecture at 6pm, and then at 7.30pm going for a meal with a bunch of guy friends.
personally im doing it to meet the guys so that they dont harass me that I dont meet them or im too busy, and 2ndly because this past weekend was the most depressing and tense for me as you all know due to DMSI or myself I dont know so im going out to de-stress.
When I return I will listen to my loop for today.
oh there was 1 other thing to report I just remember:
I woke up super super tired. I had this soreness above my right eye all day. its now gone and no idea what it was but all I can assume is that it was either cos I lacked sleep from yesterday 8am start (most likely) or it has something to do with DMSI.
When I listen to the hybrid with headphones, I know ill be bored sitting doing nothing for the 1loop so I usually use that time to either read or come online and surf as well as update posts here. I dont pay any attention at all to the loop however yesterday at random moments I would actually listen to the trickling stream and focus on its sound but thats not usual for me hence why im wondering if it was DMSI making me tired though in all honesty going to uni at 8am after a few hours sleep and then not recooperating that sleep must have been a part of it.
In life on the outside im confident and charismatic and charming and witty etc Therefore its hard for me to know if anything else in DMSI is working such as the focus fire subs as in Self esteem etc. Its hard because maybe im just one of those guys that goes outside and fakes it till he makes it or not im unsure.
Im so used to being me that I dont usually know when im stressed or fearful and this is because from age 11-18 every single day at school I went in with anxiety and acted all calm and confident. I hated that school, had no friends, nobody liked me blah blah blah and i dont care its my past but im mentioning all this because if im not fapping due to DMSI and seems to be the case then im not stonewalling and if im not stonewalling then im super eager to know what on earth is DMSI doing cos I just cant tell people!!! lol
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
