Day 11 - Update - tuesday 6th March - 2.14pm
Ive woken, felt ok. Brushed my teeth, will eat after this and then get going with my day. Have 1 class but need to go to the bank first too.
All weekend ive realised that ive been feeling unmotivated and somewhat confused and stressed.
All this is in my post but to put it all together id say I have been feeling dejected, unmotivated, uninspired and generally lost and fed up.
Not sure if this is DMSI but putting it here.
What I have done is the bare essentials, that I knew I HAD to, such as laundry, eat, shower and also chat to the pornchat girl.
I believe my oneitis stems from her seemingly ticking all my boxes that I would want in a sexual partner. I havent a clue how she looks but her sexual experiences are what I would actually seek from a life partner and thus I have been hoping to chat to her again. It also helped that we actually chatted well and got along.
However a good friend here has reminded me to prioritise on whats important which isnt her and I need to keep reminding myself this so I plan to avoid that site and thus the girl for 24hrs so that I can simply focus on myself.
She has come online at 6am my time, not replied but read my messages. So im not going to chase her now which is what I know I have been doing.
Beyond that the only thing to add is that lastnight due to all the mixed emotions I felt this weekend, I didnt want to sleep and I felt I didnt even want to go to uni. I slept at around 3am and woke 9hrs later which is about right for me.
I hope today and this week goes alot better for me.
Time for breakfast/brunch now.
Ive woken, felt ok. Brushed my teeth, will eat after this and then get going with my day. Have 1 class but need to go to the bank first too.
All weekend ive realised that ive been feeling unmotivated and somewhat confused and stressed.
All this is in my post but to put it all together id say I have been feeling dejected, unmotivated, uninspired and generally lost and fed up.
Not sure if this is DMSI but putting it here.
What I have done is the bare essentials, that I knew I HAD to, such as laundry, eat, shower and also chat to the pornchat girl.
I believe my oneitis stems from her seemingly ticking all my boxes that I would want in a sexual partner. I havent a clue how she looks but her sexual experiences are what I would actually seek from a life partner and thus I have been hoping to chat to her again. It also helped that we actually chatted well and got along.
However a good friend here has reminded me to prioritise on whats important which isnt her and I need to keep reminding myself this so I plan to avoid that site and thus the girl for 24hrs so that I can simply focus on myself.
She has come online at 6am my time, not replied but read my messages. So im not going to chase her now which is what I know I have been doing.
Beyond that the only thing to add is that lastnight due to all the mixed emotions I felt this weekend, I didnt want to sleep and I felt I didnt even want to go to uni. I slept at around 3am and woke 9hrs later which is about right for me.
I hope today and this week goes alot better for me.
Time for breakfast/brunch now.
OF3 5.75.7G 13/15Vol
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
1L-2O/3OF; (1L-2/2 5/6); (2L 19/6); (3L 27/6); (4L 9/7); (H4L 25/7)
W 19 May
MLS 5.5G: ≈70days x2, IYGSH: 54, E2: 78+48, DMSI 3.2: 56 & 22, UMOP1: 57+UMOP2: 33 = 90+10 US v12/15=100, OF: 45, OF2: 56days
